chasingwhatsfaraway

I hate always having other people’s words haunt me like a ghost until days after they said it. Strangers have such a big impact on me w what they say.

‪I think for the first time possibly ever I have something I’m actually afraid to lose‬. I’m fucking terrified of this happiness being taken away from me.

I always said I wasn’t afraid of anything. But today I found it.

It’s all in your head.

I sometimes have to tell myself over and over to ‘shut up. I can do whatever I want’

I’m numb to so many feelings because my whole past is a lie. I’m numb to memories with people, they don’t mean shit no more. Cause it’s not connected to me. Nothing connected to me until I became myself. I can throw people away in a heartbeat and it makes everything in my life so insignificant. I feel like I could disappear again.

Embrace today.

brain dead, body strong