Call me Mello
"Belay on" is a command in rock climbing used by the belayer to tell the climber they are ready to manage the rope and ensure their safety. It is the response to the climber's question, "On belay?" and signals that the belayer has checked the rope and equipment and is ready for the climber to begin
First and foremost I am not a rock climber, lmao I live in mantras and metaphors so my brain can rationalize and bridge connections between knowing and applying techniques, rationales, and mindfulness.
I have a metaphor that dealing with one's mental health is much like climbing a mountain naked. Just gritting teeth, bare foot and bare knuckling while trying to over come challenges and summits. Kind of a play on the whole mountain versus mole hill thing--because everyone has something they can and cannot deal with, just like people have mountains that are easier and harder to climb than others. So, as someone who has lived a couple lives while actively trying to repair herself, if you need somewhere safe to climb, I will be "on belay" for you.
This is a side blog to my NSFW main I've come to feel I need a slight bit of separation from my mental health journey and my day to day walk through slutsville. I am most definitely in a mental state of driven by my ID and my libido, so my normal state of existing is in a viciously achy state of want, however, I do feel multiple things, at the same time, and with a vengeance. So while I'm in that state of mind, I'm also in a constant surge of self loathing...while also knowing my worth and being arrogant about it...while also being equally as pessimistic as i am optimistic...
See why I need a little separation? š I have ADHD. So object permeance isā¦mmmm a little iffy lol, so a lot of the time I can write something and usually totally forget that I was the one who wrote it. So perhaps I can come back here and read something of mine and it'll help me in a different way than when I originally wrote it. Or maybe someone's working through something and they don't have the social capital to help them. By helping them, perhaps I can help myself, and so on and so forth. I also have like...a lot of thoughts running simultaneously, and I'd like to put them somewhere that isn't the notes section of my phone to die.
šØI am not a medical or psychological professionalšØ Perhaps I can help someone, perhaps someone can help me? I believe that anything in life can be solved by a simple conversation as long as both parties are willing to legitimately participate. Often times that's accepting where we might be off the mark, where we may not fully understand, or perhaps the way we're feeding others information may actually be our skewed look on an issue. This all being said, and my willingness to exchange thoughts, techniques, and sometimes just opinions that can be rooted in either fact, or experience, or both, means that I too can and will miss the mark. Me telling you to consider something, and your doctor telling you to do something are two vastly different things. Please, adhere to your physician before considering anything I say to be gospel. I am not responsible for you, your emotions, the things happening in your life. You have to choose to engage your own existence, and I am nothing but a thing that exists within that
šØšØIf you feel you are unsafe, unstable, or are in need of emergent assistance, please, dial 911 or go here (American Psychological Association) to access hotlines and resources. You matter, so please, don't make me a liar, and please, seek out the help you need















