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DATING MODE DEACTIVATED

Private: Wait... wait. All I had to do with the puppy dog eyes and I would have won! Though I now know it for the next time and will be using that tactic. I get it. I'm complicated emotionally, I feel things too much, take things too far sometimes and I try - and I've worked on myself especially in the last few years but doesn't mean everyone can ultimately handle me. Which I get sounds really bad to say like that. It's the fact that you don't ask me to be anything but this, that you know who I am and still choose me. You can or I can swipe yours when you're not looking. We are good at our jobs, we can be professional, we've done that for how many years now. Plus I can't pretend I'll always feel more comfortable when placed with you and JD. Especially with the uncertainty of how the last run of press will be. Eye fucking is peak, but don't be surprised when caught but we can play it off. Damn two co-workers looking at each other! JD is suspicious, he thinks something is happening. He'll never ask though he cares about us too much to make things weird. The point is to be a little dangerous, plus it's for your eyes, wanna make sure you like it.

private: All of these years that I've known you and you never figured out puppy dog eyes are a weakness? Slacking there, baby. What am I going to do with you? Doesn't everyone do that, though? I think that's all part of the human experience. We all feel things differently and that's what makes it fun. I know you're meaning with other things, too. It took me a little while to get there but yes, I chose you, Maddie. You've made me a very happy man and I'm not going to be taking any moment for granted. I think now that we're together... I'll be spending a lot more time trying to impress you. You're right - we are pros. I've got faith that we'll get through everything. It's not that I don't want to yell about how you're my girl and celebrate you - I just think that we need to protect ourselves a little from the opinion of others. We've both struggled with that in the past. I'm sure that we can be creative with our answers about all that. If he does ask... should we tell him? You know that I'd love anything that you put on. It might not last too long on your body when I see it but you're yet to complain about that...

How was your time on the trip? Not to be nosy, but I saw that you deactivated your dating profile. Did you meet someone in Cancun? If you did, what kind of magic was on your side? @chasesmf

My trip was great - caught as much sun as I possibly could. I did deactivate it but no, I didn't meet anyone in Cancun. I don't think that there's any kind of magic? Is the app not giving you any bites?

Private: Oh baby, cute. Definitely not our first fight. Let's hold off on that a little longer. My emotions are not ready to think about that. Compromise, we're both lucky? I know you do, but not everyone likes me just me as... me. I get I can be complicated, messy, emotional, intense but you have never asked me to be anything different or to be a little less. Yes, it does sound terrible but last I checked we still love our jobs, which means it's inevitable. Though I've already decided I'm stealing your cologne and that way at least I can spray it and it'll give me that feeling of you're there. Kinda. You're right we should tell them, our teams love us and want us to be happy. Just worry that they'll attempt to keep us separated with press. Which given I'm mentally avoiding dealing with those emotions right now, don't want that to be something extra. We do. That one does work well for what we're already using it for. So one for a break to emotionally collect ourselves or just need to talk. Mm thought you might like that. Shopping and getting to see you try on clothes for me? Say less. New shirts for you, lingerie for me?

Private: Thank god. Cause I don't wanna be fighting with you. We'll hold off on that for a little bit. I guess that I can accept the compromise... mostly cause I don't want you to use your puppy dog eyes on me and completely cave. If people don't like you for who you are then that's a them issue, Maddie. And they don't deserve to be in your life. I'll never ask you to be anything that you aren't. Or be less of you. Do you want me to buy you a bottle of what I use? I don't know if we'll be kept separated. I'd like to think that we can be good at our jobs. I'll just eye fuck you when the interview cameras aren't rolling. Keep it on the downlow and things. I'm pretty sure that JD knows something's going on between us, too. I'll give you a cuddle when we're at the hotel, just the two of us if you're needing that outlet. You know if we go lingerie shopping that's going to be very dangerous...

private: We may have to fight over the title of who's the lucky one. Partly want to say me, because you take me just as I am. Don't expect me to be anyone different then the same woman you've known. Now the waking up next to? That I will admit, I'm getting attached to. What am I supposed to do now? Fall asleep in my own bed alone? That doesn't sound as fun. Alright, so we can approach this two ways, we can tell our teams. Make them aware and that we explicitly want to get through OBX without issue but we this is real, or we do what I think we'll end up doing and we come up with safe words. I'm thinking two. One for I need a moment with you to talk us down, emotions will be high, and another for I'm about to rip your clothes off. Yes? Tell me how right I am that it's the second option.

private: Are we already having our first fight? Because I know for a fact that I'm the lucky one out of the two of us. If you were anyone but you then I would be saying something cause you're the woman that I fell for. I like you the way you are, Maddie. Always have. Sounds terrible, honestly. But I know we're going to have to fall asleep on our own, sometimes. Maybe we could do both? Let out teams know that we're together - so that any hotel rooms that get booked... at least we can be next door to each other. But also have a few words that mean different things. We've already got Island Time as one, don't we? Although ripping my clothes off does sound fun. Might need to buy myself some more shirts... you can come shopping with me and tell me what ones you like.

So, you only hear James when your mom is mad at you? Yeah, that tracks. I swear there’s something universally chilling about your mom using your full government name, like… instant dread, no matter your age. It never stops working either. I actually spent my birthday in Miami for F1 too, and it was such a fun experience! I loved every minute of it. How’re you liking Cancún, by the way? Hopefully it’s the reset you need before the press whirlwind starts up. I just wrapped up press for The Testaments myself, so this timing feels like a gift.

Basically, yes. A couple of people have tried to call me it in the past but it just sounds weird. So we agreed that's not going to happen. My mom using my full government name is when I know I've really fucked up, even at my grown age of 33. James Alexander Chase Stokes is not something anyone yells out for fun. You were in Miami for F1, too? Damn - we must of missed each other. Cancun was good. Feels like I'm just taking an extended holiday from everything all the time, at the moment. What's The Testaments? But congrats on getting through press - it's always a rough one.

Alright, so you have to let me know what are some fun things you've been up to on this trip? I have been trying to get my ass out and see the beautiful scenery, but I admittedly have spent a lot of time by the pool. What can I say? A chair by the pool and a bar is tempting no matter what country I am in.

I went out for dinner with a friend and then did that underground river thing. A few experiences that I haven't had before so that's been really nice. Nothing wrong with being by the pool - it's a pretty safe place to be. Did you do any of the activities though?

I've been to Mexico before but didn't do anything like this. This has just been so amazing and the little break was definitely needed. Life has been a little hectic lately. This was very welcome. Did you do the underground rivers thing? I'm glad I did as it was one of the most beautiful things I've ever experienced. May have gotten a little too close to the flamingos and let me tell you, they're not really the nicest birds. @chasesmf

I've been to Mexico before but can't say that I've ever been to Cancun so I've been enjoying every moment. Might have drank a little too much but who doesn't do that on vacation? I did but I don't think I got close to the Flamingos - birds shouldn't be that tall and skinny.

i could easily be so wrong about this, i forget to check socials or anything but you give me the vibe of someone that enjoys the beach scene. would i be right there or am i very off? || @chasesmf

I spent most of my teen years in Florida so you would be right about that one. Being by the beach is pretty fun and I've been enjoying it. Although I'm looking forward to going home cause I kinda miss my pup. How did you enjoy the vacation?

What do you think of Cancun so far? I think this place is beyond beautiful. I think this would make for a nice wedding venue, not that I plan on tying the knot any time soon. @chasesmf

Cancun has been great - I enjoyed everything about this place. Especially since I've never been before. Was nice seeing friends again and doing things I wouldn't think of. Thinking about marriage locations but not planning to tie the knot? Interesting.

That sounds nice and maybe we can all make a moment to hang before promos kick up. I know Madelyn's been caught up with work and told me she has a girlfriend. So aside from that, not sure. For me, just been work. I'd make time for everyone though, easily. Just say the word, you know I'd make the time for you, Chase.

Yeah, I just found out she had a girlfriend. I'm happy for her. It's chill, dude. I know we're going to spend time together once the promo and stuff gets started. Maybe we can hang out a little on the beach in Cancun or something?

spend time with some friends, started filming something.. oh and i've been spending time with my girlfriend. yeah, i got a girlfriend during a trip to hawaii back in february as well.

You have a girlfriend? Shit Mads - I missed that whole memo. Does she make you happy? Who is she? I'm going to have to have the give the whole friend talk and make sure that you're well taken care of.