im starting to think im just running out of steam on all of my creative ambitions but i dont know if that'll mean i'll stop chugging soon or if its going to be something where i try and find new meaning even if it isnt absolutely what i want to be putting my focus into. stagnation is really a bitch and no im not talking about stag beetle nation those guys are cool im just more worried that im just going to be dragging my feet in the mud over every little idea that requires a modicum of effort. i did a lot of work over this month on """"""""""""art"""""""""" if editing pictures of my friends cat can be considered that but ultimately i think im just burnt out on everything.
i really wish i posted more on here but honestly it would get repetitive just going over the same shit i always do. i now hate my ex, i have dysphoria over everything about myself, my relationships and whatnot with the people currently in my life are so strange and i feel like ive just made so little process in bettering myself. instead going back on old habits time and time again, swearing this time its different. swearing this time im not getting in over my head. i know ive changed, i know ive become better, but ive also became worse in some aspects. i truly am pathetic but honestly if i were to wallow in it any longer i fear thats all i'll be able to do for quite awhile. god that sounds gay as fuck lmao i haaaaaate emotions oh my god. either way im doing okayish, i think my lack of sleep has been catching up to me. I suuuuck at taking care of myself but that'll change, just like everything right now it will change, i will eventually pull myself up, just yknow. gotta actually get the feeling to. fuck my ex btw i hate him sorry i keep bringing him up but he has been p ming me the o off lately. that's a little incomprehensible but if you follow this blog you are used to this. im fucking done with minecraft though dude holy shit ive been playing it almost daily for the last month i think thats the real reason ive just been feeling nothing but shitty these last couple of weeks. oh right the image here one sec uhhhhhhhh on pc typing this out so lemme see what i have here
does anyone who's friends with me even know about 8 bit theater or is this something i grew up on that even the people pushing 30 in the crowd dont know anything about










