damnatio memoriae

looking for something?

how's that going?

if you're not doing anything later, dinner's on me.

i kinda like being single.

i'm sure it wasn't that bad.

do you still write?

things got dark for me, and i kinda just gave up.

is this real?

i really like you.

it's not your fault.

they're the only family i got.

i'm trying to maintain the illusion that i'm not a total nerd.

glad to see that you're doing okay.

who hasn't been borderline suicidal at some point in their life?

we actually met in a bookstore.

it's kind of uncomfortable there.

my dad and i don't really get along.

you're not a disappointment.

i'm not sure of anything.

i can give you the money.

maybe i didn't want you to know.

let's face it, we're practically strangers.

you're the best thing that's ever happened to me.

what the fuck are you thinking?

you must be drunk.

don't you fucking move.

i need to trust you.

you can sleep there.

why'd you pick me?

what exactly are we doing here?

you've been doing really well. better than i expected.

i hate drinking alone.

don't do that. don't feel sorry for them.

you can't cheat an honest man.

we never feel sorry for the mark.

what is the matter with you?

room's got an amazing view.

i'm sorry about yesterday.

all night, all i could think about was being alone with you.

do you think this is funny?

i gave you everything, you know.

i don't want you here anymore.

if you're gonna steal, steal a lot.

i took it too far.

don't be jealous.

you want me gone.

i'm starting to feel like i'm the mark.

are you really doing this?

so you used me.

you don't have to go through this alone.

i didn't know you could cook.

i don't need you to do this for me.

why are you getting upset?

we're just doing the best we can.

i don't want your money.

i want you back.

you look a lot better.

did you feel anything for me?

put the gun down! put it down.

well, i'm a professional.

you can do what you want. i don't care.

are you behind this?

i didn't have anything to do with this.

charmingrelic :  an independent and selective blog for [ THE WINTER SOLDIER ]  james buchanan ‘bucky’ barnes drawing on marvel 616 continuity.   canon divergent  &  headcanon-heavy.   no mcu verse.   low activity  ,  nsfw  &  21+ only.   loved by billie.  est 2013 & rebooted 2023.

dialogue  prompts  taken  from  everything  everywhere  all  at  once  (2022),  directed  by  daniel  kwan  and  daniel  scheinert.  feel  free  to  edit  and  change  as  you  seem  fit.

❛ you look really pretty right now. ❜

❛ stop changing the subject. ❜

❛ every day i fight, i fight for all of us. ❜

❛ what are you doing? what is wrong? ❜

❛ if i have to think about one more thing today, my head will explode. ❜

❛ you may be in grave danger. there is no time to explain.❜

❛ we can make our own way. please, come with me. ❜

❛ don't even talk to me about this because i won't remember.❜

❛ i am not your husband. at least not the one you know. i am another version of him from another life path, another universe. ❜

❛ i’m here because we need your help.❜

❛ sorry, very busy today. no time to help you– ❜

❛ all those years of searching have brought me here. to this universe. to you. ❜

❛ i’m here to tell you every rejection, every disappointment has led you here. to this moment. ❜

❛ i'm not ready to fight yet. ❜

❛ maybe we don't have a choice. ❜

❛ now, you can either come with me and live up to your ultimate potential, or lie here and live with the consequences. ❜

❛ i... want to lie here. ❜

❛ how often do people literally die laughing? ❜

❛ my husband won't even kill a spider. how are you the same person? ❜

❛ we are talking about infinity. if you can imagine it, somewhere out there, it exists. ❜

❛ how did i die? ❜

❛ i've seen you die a thousand ways. in a thousand worlds. in every single one, you were murdered. ❜

❛ what!? who wants me dead? ❜

❛ you’ve been feeling it too, haven’t you? something is off. your clothes never wear as well the next day, your hair never falls in quite the same way, even your coffee tastes... wrong. ❜

❛ maybe we would have been better off if we had never gotten married. ❜

❛ i never said that. ❜

❛ you didn’t have to. it’s the way you look at me. ❜

❛ can’t you see it? how wonderful it would be if you came with me? ❜

❛ i saw my life without you. i wish you could have seen it. it was beautiful. ❜

❛ shhh, you're not thinking straight. ❜

❛ what is worse than death? ❜

❛ i saw your face on a billboard and — this is silly — i wondered if you remembered me... ❜

❛ is it that i can’t be here, or that i’m not allowed to be here? ❜

❛ there is no good, there is no evil. there is only “goovil”. ❜

❛ if you can imagine it, you have fucked it. ❜

❛ do not be so closed minded that you blind yourself from the truth! ❜

❛ don’t make me fight you. i am really really good. ❜

❛ you're capable of anything because you're so bad at everything. ❜

❛ you can't remember anything because your bodies were under the control of other universes. ❜

❛ you were like puppets. and you could do things you normally can't do. you were like, what's that movie... raccaccoonie? ❜

❛ how can you defeat her in every universe, if you can't even kill her in one? ❜

❛ the sacrifices necessary to win this war... i know all too well. ❜

❛ i cannot lose another loved one to the darkness. ❜

❛ i know you have feelings. feelings that make you so sad. that make you just want to give up. that is not your fault. ❜

❛ i'll see you again soon, somewhere out there in all that noise. ❜

❛ just think happy thoughts. ❜

❛ you okay? caught you staring off into space again. ❜

❛ i'm the one you've been looking for. ❜

❛ i’m the one who will defeat you. ❜

❛ you’re finally free, like me. ❜

❛ you don't have to choose anymore. between loving me or hating me. you can do both at the same time. ❜

❛ before, you were asking about "our daughter". it's crazy, but it really got me thinking. what if you had come with me all of those years ago? ❜

❛ all of this time, i wasn't looking for someone who could defeat me. i was looking for someone who could see what i see, feel what i feel... ❜

❛ oh, good, you're here too. ❜

❛ i'm sorry about ruining everything, i– ❜

❛ we're all stupid. small stupid little humans. it's like our whole deal. ❜

❛ everything is going to be okay. ❜

❛ you think i’m weak don’t you? ❜

❛ when we first fell in love all of those years ago, your father would say i was too sweet for my own good. maybe he was right. ❜

❛ please! can we just stop fighting! ❜

❛ you tell me that it's a cruel world and we're all just running around in circles. i know that. i've been on this earth just as many days as you. ❜

❛ the only thing i do know is we have to be kind. be kind. especially, when we don't know what's going on. ❜

❛ i know you go through life with your fists held tight. you see yourself as a fighter. well, i see myself as one too. this is how i fight. ❜

❛ in another life, i would have really liked just doing laundry and taxes with you. ❜

❛ you know what i say? cold, hysterical, unlovable bitches like us make the world go round. ❜

❛ you aren’t unlovable. there is always something to love. ❜

❛ even in a stupid, stupid universe where we have hot dogs for fingers, we’d all be very good with our feet! ❜

❛ in a universe where we both agree that no one could love you, if we look hard enough, something will prove us wrong. ❜

❛ we are all useless alone. so its good you're not alone. ❜

❛ maybe you win in this universe. but in another, i beat you. or we tie. or we eat crepes. ❜

❛ i don't want to hurt anymore. and for some reason when i'm with you, it hurts both of us. ❜

❛ out of all of the places i could be, why would i want to be here with you? ❜

❛ i still want to be here with you. i will always want to be here with you. ❜

"fucking moron," he doesn't even realize what he's saying because he's more focused on the blood pouring from bucky's flesh and blood arm onto his couch. his couch because his apartment was closer. "the couch is the most expensive thing i have." that's not even true, it his weapons by miles but those don't count.

he pressed a wet cloth to the wound on bucky's arm, not gently.

"you were in la-la land," he says, swallowing the pain. his lips twist in a grimace. it isn't an accusation, but he is a little annoyed. he hadn't planned on bleeding all over clint's couch tonight, but it was either his arm or clint's chest, and chest wounds never fare very well. he would know. "someone had to be payin' attention."

❝i felt a scream crawl into my chest. it was thick and sat at the back of my throat for hours today. but my jaw was slack, my lips too tired to move. so the scream sat like stone, sinking deep into the pit of my stomach. it bent my spine until my knuckles scraped the concrete and i left a trail of blood behind me.❞

they want you to be a hero but you’re just a boy born from dirt, one who’s destined to end up in dirt. you’re unclean and leave your fingerprints on everything you touch. you want so much but you’re afraid of touching things that shine.

you remember weeks spent spitting blood out and smearing it over pretty things. (you don’t know when you’ll stop bleeding.) you remember biting your own tongue to stop ugly words from escaping your mouth. (anger doesn’t look good on powerless people.) you remember clinging on to life with broken nails, stones wedged between them while people looked the other way. (your survival isn’t something they want to see.)

❝i felt a scream crawl into my chest. it was thick and sat at the back of my throat for hours today. but my jaw was slack, my lips too tired to move. so the scream sat like stone, sinking deep into the pit of my stomach. it bent my spine until my knuckles scraped the concrete and i left a trail of blood behind me.❞

why the change at all? we hate change: because managing two sites is double the work and it makes harder to update the coding on both platforms seamlessly. having two sites hosted on different platforms doubles the chances for bugs and glitches and it doubles the load of work. i'm only one person and i deal with chronic health issues which limits how much time and energy i can plausibly pour into a hobby. simplifying the formatter will be more efficient and kinder on my health long term.

why i merged the tumblr version into the carrd version instead of the other way around?: the tumblr version only works on desktop while the carrd version is adaptable to mobile devices hence why i've been calling it "the mobile version" but it works on desktop just as well. it made the most sense to keep the version that works on both desktop and mobile.

what is changing and what's staying the same: you'll only have to update your bookmarks if you have the url bookmarked :) i have added the night mode option from the original tumblr version to the mobile carrd version so that feature is still available and as far as the editor itself goes all features remain the same.

the con: the only thing i couldn't add to the carrd version is the toggle between 1080px and 540px boxes. this is because of how carrd adjusts the width of the content to device screen/resolution. if i add fixed sized boxes it will not work on mobile, which is why the carrd version was created in the first place. since this was the least used feature it was sacrificed to the gods :B

conclusion: the original link will remain active with a button redirecting to the updated carrd link, previously referred to as the mobile version.