Those who seek life shall die.

It was Friday evening on the base. Finally it was the end of a really stressful week for everyone including you. Everyone was exhausted, happily going back to their rooms to finally get some sleep or to the common room to socialize. But you, you were hurring through the hall to a certain room. Taking a sight you zipped up your hoodie before stopping infront of a well known door. Exhaustion and worry was written all over your face as you knocked.

Your face light up when you saw König open the door. You saw excitement in his eyes as well. It was time for your weekly rutine of watching movies together, it was the only thing keeping you sane the whole week.

"Ah Schatze you are finally here." Just like a little child he pulled you in by your hand.

You were not expecting it and lost your balance falling right into his chest. Pretending that it wasn't his goal he used this opportunity to trap your body in a bear hug.

You hugged him back just as strong. After all you didn't see each other for the whole week. You kept working and working letting the paperwork swallow you whole. Skipping most of the meals just to get everything done in time. This week was real trouble for everyone. You could feel the tension slowly leave your body as you relaxed into his arms. But the way you excessively felt your body against his kept you at your toes.

Neither of you were feeling for any serious movies so you agreed on watching a cartoon together for this night. Squishing together on the small sofa that König has was normally pleasant experience but now that every move, every touch made you aknowlage the way your clothes sit on you or the way your body curves it was slowly driving you crazy.

Trying to keep your attention on the movie instead wasn't going so well. Through half of the movie you were barely focusing on watching. Your mind was drifting away and only that one thing was pondering on your mind. It was bothering you the whole week and when you though that being with König would make it go away here it is making you feel bad again.

Königs belly laugh slightly shaken your head that was resting on his shoulder, bringing you back from your thoughts.

"Did you see that?" He ask through his laughter.

"Hm? Yes, yes." You snaped back to reality.

Again paying your attention to the tv trying to see what he was talking about.

Noticing the tension on your face König couldn't stop himself from asking: "Schatze, are you okay?" He looked down at you slightly concerned with what could be on your mind.

"Hmm..." You though about what to say,"Yes! Don't worry." You decided against telling him, after all this was supposed to be your "date" night, you didn't want to ruin it for him.

König sighted a little before stoping the movie and turning his body to face you. This sudden action and loosing support from his shoulder made you nearly fall over. Adapting to his new position you too turned yourself towards him and sat straight up.

"Y/n you know you can tell me everything. Are you okay? What's on your mind?" He put his hand on top of yours giving you a little squeeze.

You started blabbing out words not really knowing how to explain yourself.

"I- well... It's just that- umm-"

He run his thumb over your hand in soothing circles.

"It okay Liebes. Take your time. Take a breath in, i'm not going anywhere, i will wait." His sweet words grounding you down.

You closed your eyes and took a deep breath, only focusing on the warmth coming from his hand on yours.

In and out.

Opening your eyes you were met with his loving gaze.

Calming down a little bit you started again.

"Well lately i'm not feeling like myself. I'm so exhausted from this week and everything that's been happening. I just feel so bad about myself, how i look, how i act, everything seems wrong.

It's- i think it's because how bad my dysphoria got these few weeks and i-..." You looked down, "I keep thinking about- well you and me."

Somehow König looked even more focused than he did until now.

"What's wrong?" He slightly tightened his grip on your hand.

"I just keep wondering, why me? Why are you with me. There are real men that would kill to be with you." You could feel tears forming in your eyes.

It felt owerhelming now when you actually told him how you feel. It felt like telling him that you don't fully trust him. Your mind was racing between the worst scenerios, what if he tells you that you are right, that he should have been with someone better, someone manlier? But wouldn't it be for the best?

Not giving him enough time to talk, to let any of those scenarios fullfil you added: "I mean, what i wanted to say is i don't feel like i'm good enough for you. You deserve a real man. I love you so much but i want you to be happy." At your last word you broke down crying.

König's heart was aching looking at you sobbing infront of him.

With the back of your hand you tried to wipe your face dry but the tears just wouldn't stop coming.

"I don't deserve man like you, König. You- you..." It was getting harder for you to talk between sobs and you kept stumbling over your words.

Even through all that König never stopped tracing patterns on your hand and was patiently waiting for you to finish your sentence.

"You are so nice, so handsome, so perfect and you are loosing your time with someone like me! I'm not even a real man. Whatever i say, whatever i do i will never be."

König couldn't just watch anymore. He pulled you into his chest, trying to calm you down with a hug.

"Love, Y/n, you are everything i ever wished for." He slightly pulled away cupping your face in his hands.

"Listen, if anything, i don't deserve you. You are so smart, so handsome, so strong. Look at you, everything you went through everything you are still going through and you still keep smiling. There is no better man then you. God, you are the biggest man i know! I know you may not feel like it right now but i swear to you, you are a real man to me and always will be. You make me the happiest i can be." He used his thumbs to wipe your tears away.

His words meant so much to you even through it was hard to believe them. You hid your face in his chest again trying to calm your breathing as you inhaled his scent. König kept his hands wrapped around you firmly, slightly swinging back and forth soothing you down.

"Mein Junge. Mein süßer Junge.' König whispered softly into your hair.

He placed a quick kiss on top of your head before adding more german which translation you already knew by heart.

"Ich liebe dich, mein Prinz."

You sat like that for some time just resting on his chest, calming down. Movie long forgotten by both of you. He didn't loosen his grip on you for even a second keeping you flush against him. He just kept running his hands through your hair, whispering sweet nothings into your ear.

You focused only on him, his words, his touch.

And neither König could be bothered by anything around you two. Only thing on his mind, his only goal was to calm you down.

He truly was perfect.

Some time passed and you finally got your breath under control.

König was covering your now red face with little kisses through his veil.

"What would you say about finishing the movie later? We can go to bed, you need to rest after all you had to do this week." He cupped your face in his big hands.

You were too exhausted to answer just nodding your had slightly.

Without warning König swooped you up bride style and carried you to his bed.

You could feel his strong arms flex underneath you. He carefully put you down on the bed and after taking his shirt off he climbed right next to you.

He put the blanket over the two of you and pulled you against his chest holding you firmly like you were about to run away from him.

"Sleep well, my princ."

His heavy accent soothing you to sleep.