Disappointment Factory

''what if my writing isn't good eno--'' what if it's a reflection of your soul. what if it has a place in this world. what if you write it anyway

they're saying we might become people again in 2026

when it wasn't meant to be 🤣🤣 but the potential of possibility still plagues you 🤔

I didn't babygirl-ify him. He did that to himself

saying "i want spain/france/england/argentina to lose because they beat my team 7263837 months/years ago and mama loves to hold a grudge" is a good enough reason to not want a team to win. you don't even need that much of a reason. "rancid vibes" is good enough. "[player name] is my personal enemy" is good enough. go back to the core of being a football fan - hating for the love of the game.

am I aware of the patterns? yes. does that mean anything will change? no.

i keep thinking i will just figure it out later but given my track record of [gestures vaguely] i am not so sure anymore

i feel like there is a sleep in me that needs to be slept but each time i sleep i don't sleep that sleep

i must not get takeout. takeout is the wallet-killer. takeout is the little-death that brings total obliteration. i will face the kitchen, fridge, and pantry. i will make choices about what to cook and then execute them. when hunger is gone there will be nothing. only i will remain.

And like who the fuck is this guy [gestures to reflection in mirror alone in bathroom