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we used to sit and talk a lot when the room was filled with people

we used to dance when no ones there in my house blaring music

we used stay up late and pour our hearts out when the light went out

now we dont see each other for months but we used to everyday

we texted each other the minute something goes wrong

we shared a million laughs until people started to question what we were actually laughing about

they say friends come and go but we never used to leave each others side

now you live in new york and im looking at the sky

we loved each other in way no other friends ever do

if you were my safe haven and I was your home

now its been years and I am with someone new and you are out there looking at pictures when the sky was clear and blue

I wont lie I still laugh and smile and slowly moving on

I know it heals with time but I feel like ten years is too long

but still in my heart there is a room thats locked tight and its key is hidden deep inside

I promise I ll keep it safe to give it back to you again

because when life gives you lemons you re supposed to make lemonade

Im having exams these days and I havent even looked at some of the subject so I stay up everyday until like 4am and we usually have exams at 1pm. wehave 3 back to back exam and I am exhausted. Today after the exam I am going to have a nap because the next exam is the day after tomorw I have to listen to more then 10 lecture recordings before that. I dont know the point of doing this degree at all. It is just the certificate at this point. 

it ended in the blink of and eye and I'm out in the cold you'd think now there space now that you're gone I think you are blind not to see the pain in my eyes but it's fine I'll make it on my own

Everything gonna work out for the best That's what they say when you're running out of breath I felt like I am floating and looking from above at two strangers that have a blurry past

i said we'd lose each other along the way

you said we'd still talk

i smiled and held my chin up and rolled my shoulders back

they say always aim for the moon and you will land among the stars

when we said 

that we’ll be there 

and there was laughter in the air

we were looking back 

at ourselves form the future

we were wishing 

we could be like that forever

we were looking back

while moving in fast forward 

in a few years

we won’t remember how we got there

when we might be looking from the future

searching for us in the 

busy highway 

we don't get to decide the moment we die.

but between those 2 moments there are moments which we get to make decisions. every day, every hour. big and small. these decisions make us who we are. these decisions define what we are. We just have to decide which way we wanna go and spend every passing minute conscious enough to make the right decision so we stay on that road.

even the hard decisions. especially the hard decisions. it will sometimes cause pain. but everything is temporary including the pain. it will pass. just let it pass. feel the pain and let it pass. wait until it passes. be patient.

sometime there will be moments where we dont get to decide anything. stuff just happens. both good and bad. same thing applies here.

you have me thinking of you 

you pop in when I close my eyes 

when the room get quiet I think of you 

I don’t want to I just do 

I don’t like what’s going on inside my head 

It is bad for me to think of you 

please at least let me sleep in peace

this road I’m going down is dangerous 

I know well that it leads to hell 

I don’t want to I really hate this 

I hate this but I do tend to think of you 

we can’t talk like we used to do 

I don’t want to, I reckon it would be easier if we could 

I can’t look you in the eye, my lips paralyze when I do 

my friends all hate you, maybe a little more than I do 

I’ve heard love stories start like this

I shudder at the thought 

I never want to want someone like you 

pretending things are fine 

is fine to be sad 

it is more than fine to cry 

do whatever you want it just one life

it seems easier than waiting to meet the one 

I will stay by my side

I will hold me up 

I will guide me through 

and I was too sad inside

you were cracking jokes and

I thought you were fine

we were both crying out loud

even though no one knew

something had to happen to let the flood gates open up

one word can make us see it all clearer

that you were sad and

I was being mean to you

I m so sorry you have no idea

I know its not fine but I was also crying inside

I was so sad that I thought everybody was fine

I want somebody to hold me tight in their arms

I wanna be wrapped inside when feeling sad

I wanna hold hands when chilling in our basement with the gang

think that we are playing board games just cuz the boards laid out

tired of the one to always get the food 

when all the others are busy sneaking kisses 

tired to be the one taking the photographs 

tired of being the only one going home to an empty house

I wonder if he is having a hard time too 

I wonder he also playing third wheel 

I wonder if he is with another girl 

He has had everything people chase their whole lives, since the day he was born. But as nothing comes without a price, he too had to pay for it. Having to grow up alone with a stranger from after two week of seeing the world, he could be called as one to have risen from the dark to see the light. 

when the nights growing 

when music hits you hard 

when its done and they are leaving 

and you are heading home 

you only hear the music and 

the voices inside

you see pictures 

ones you want to and dont 

it all plays in slide show and your lost inside your head

when music hits you hard and you are slowly flying far 

and the words come rushing 

the world has muted itself on you 

letting your thoughts to take the floor 

the distraction are gone everyones in bed 

you are heading home alone inside your head

you wanna laugh you wanna cry  

you badly need a hug 

you call home theres a known voice but too far from you to touch 

you hold it in your heart 

and youll be okay for another day 

hold it deep inside and youll be fine 

the one getting yelled

and all the dirty looks

everyone else is getting by

sharing smiles and talking

she is able to smile

theres nothing wrong

like ive been telling my self all along

to bare with it, that itll pass

its just a phase shes restless thats all

all is fine though she laughs out loud

its me its not her that is at fault

itll be way better if we knew whats wrong

but no such luck

our love is like the ocean so big, endless

waves hit the shore everyday every minute 

the way we feel our love and how it hits us in the heart

but the best part of the ocean is the world lies under 

the world one has ever seen but the fish that wander

the sea looks big but the beauty beats the size

the beauty that lies inside hidden from outside

your morning voice, the warmth in cold nights 

the smile we share over the phone we both know and feel 

knowing every sigh and all the inside jokes

and the fights and the cries brings us closer to home 

we both see the world and at night we share the bits