Ceto T. Sharp

I wished for the day I didn't think of you.

Your body...Your taste... Your smell.

Your body wrapped tightly around another, like two snakes twisting and contacting to try and become one.

One entity ...One human...One Species.

I wished the memories of our hands locking would be killed from my mind;

Like a piece of road kill, it's glassy eyes begging for a second chance

I wished for the day that I no longer wanted a second chance.

A second chance to be happy with you...myself...my life,

I want  a day where I don't feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders.

A day where I don't feel like your memory is eating me alive

Two snakes shedding there skin off one another,

A punishment masked in sex.

To feel pain and fear, 

Anything other than the cold numbness inside.

Anything to make me forgot about you.

     Your hands soft as velvet tracing my lips...

     Down my waist...

     Up my black skirt...

     Every moan stolen.

The scarlet line pumping and pounding 

Hit me, Beat me, Bite me

Wrap your hand around my throat like a predator ready to kill its prey

Blood sprouting 

Tears escaping

Screams exploding

Body shaking

                                                        A silent killer strikes 

                                         A chill enters the room 

                                                      All my senses turn cold

Tick...Tock...Tick..Tock 

1...24...Hands tracing slowly

2...48...Bodies rising quickly

3..72...Moans rush in and out

A ghost of what we had 

A memory gone 

Red robes on the bedroom floor

"Do you want her still" your answer should have been "oh no dear" but I have to ask...

Do you even want me anymore, my baby like you used to you?

Do you hate me when you look at me?

Do I remind you of what went wrong?

What's gone?

Do you think of these little questions to?

Or are you just gonna throw me anyway like a bit of discarded meat

For bite of fresh blonde flesh that will lay in your and her own bed of red robes.

They say love is when your heart beats faster,

Like a deer caught in the headlights.

They say love is when two bodies collide and souls intertwine,

Like a picture locked in a pocket watch.

Two souls crash and burn together

Two souls light and linger forever

Hey baby, do you want to go on the run?

We’ll be like animals gone wild.

Running for the days, running for the nights

Sun in the sky and rising high,

We’ll be two lovers gone for tonight.

 I know one day this won’t be the case

Those longer summer days will end with shut of an eye.

I want to feel the wind on my face

I want to feel your hands, your heart beating

The last time I’ll see your pretty little face.

 So summer please won’t you come

For one last adventure, one last tale,

One I can keep locked away in a box.

The birds singing out loud at last

One last summer with you.

Should I feel my heart skip when you walk into a room? When I walk into a room; Does your mind light up When you think off all the things you want to do to me. Tie me up and hear me beg.

But yet when I see you I want to know you, Explore you But not in the way you want to explore me.

Will I be your first choice?

Or will you rejoice,

              When the cat catches the mouse;

              and all our conversations end.

Your body spoke to mine

Moans, sweat and sweet tears;

             But you never wanted all of me

              Like I wanted all of you.

 Did sirens go off when my top slipped of?

Or was I like the rest of the girls on your list

                No better than the one before,

                Or the one who will come soon after.

 So tell me. Was I ever your first choice?

Or was I that girl on that list,

                      ‘The good girl, gone oh so bad’