CELIS

"Ding-Ding! Dinner's on its way, honey!"

Hey everyone! How have you been? I've been kind of MIA, huh? The truth is, university is taking up a lot of my time, and the little free time I have left (after studying) I spend it sleeping because, damn, university life is exhausting!

Anyway, this time I'm not bringing anything from TSMAS fandom, but I have a few things cooking in the background. I just haven't had the motivation to finish them yet... besides, it's been a long time since I posted anything for the Welcome Home fandom! And I was already missing my girl Kitty! This is a slightly more polished rework, still keeping in mind my Stitches AU (which has actually been pretty neglected, sorry, ideas I never finished putting into words! I'll find the time to finish the many ideas I left unfinished).

I was feeling nostalgic, guys! Because even though I'm still part of the fandom, I'm not that up-to-date on the lore (although from what I've seen, it's pretty awesome!).

Anyway, nobody asked for my opinion, but I guess I want to say something because, well...I want to? Anyway, people, the internet is freaking huge and so many people interact with each other. You don't know anything about the person you're interacting with beyond the information they give. Personally, as someone who's used Tumblr for almost eight years (and I started using it when I was a minor), I understand that sometimes I'm going to run into unpleasant people. I was unpleasant myself because I was young and dumb and thought the biggest insult at the time was something like 'asshole'.

We're all human, we can all make mistakes, we can learn from them and improve! That doesn't mean you can just ignore everything; you have to be self-aware, you know? It doesn't matter if two people think they're right and the other is wrong; it's not just about arguments, but how you treat the people you're interacting with.

I'm getting off track. Look, you never know what's going to happen on the internet, but one thing is clear: cause and effect. Everything you do online has a consequence (negative or positive), and you have to deal with that! Especially since people tend to dog-pile on someone and take sides when maybe it's best to let people resolve their problems amongst themselves, which is difficult because the internet is basically a public place, and sometimes it's hard not to meddle in other people's business (I'm doing it myself right now).

My advice? Be like AO3; don't like it? Don't read it! Sometimes you have to think, "Is it worth getting into this situation?" And if the answer is no, then don't. For example... I've been thinking a lot about whether to say something or not. I'm terrified that someone will get angry with me for my opinion, or when I post something, I worry that someone won't like it... But you have to remember that, at the end of the day, there will always be someone who disagrees with you, no matter what. Be kind to people out there; you don't know what's going on in their lives. Be understanding and try not to take sides without seeing the whole picture. And if you ultimately decide that the situation isn't helping, stop interacting. It's not always easy, but blocking people, unfollowing others, avoiding commenting... it's not an attack or telling someone you hate them; it's just taking care of yourself.

Live and let live, people! The world is already a harsh place; there's no need to make it even harsher in a space that should be for entertainment and interacting with others. Unless the actions are truly horrendous, let people learn and improve. There's no need to be...heh...assholes. Taking responsibility for your actions, apologize, reflect, grow, learn—everything everyone should be doing!

I guess... to paraphrase my other post, I really like the TSAMS community, and I wish things wouldn't get bad or awkward; I wish everything were perfect. But that's not realistic...even so...

Oops, it took me a long time to reply to this, huh? University has consumed my life and I barely have any free time left, sorry, Littlestarrys!

But if I had to say what I love about this show/shows besides Sun (because he's one my all-time favorite character, seriously, he's in the same spot as Spider-Man and Bumblebee from Transformers! And I've loved those two characters since I was eight years old), it would be the community, not the show itself.

I don't usually interact directly with the community other than looking at fan art or reading fanfics, but something I do enjoy is lurking in other people's posts and seeing what they think; is there hate? Yes. Are there people unhappy with the show? Of course, I'm one of them! But...at the end of the day, many people get together to discuss topics about the show, there are people who have put their whole heart and soul into creating things for this show! Art, merch, fanfics! Those things take so much time, so much effort...

And people still do it, even if not everyone is happy with the show. People keep talking to each other, sharing opinions, and engaging with it all! There are people who have left the fandom completely, or weren't even in the fandom to begin with, and yet they still take a moment to interact (a reblog, a like, a comment) on the art that other people have made for this show because they see the effort these people put into what they do. And I love that; it's something that's happened with my own posts, and I appreciate it so much.

I understand that many people are unhappy with the series (I am too, and I'm not afraid to say that the only thing that keeps me tied to the show is the love I feel for the character of Sun). I understand that there's a lot of criticism of the series; it's valid, it's to be expected when you have such a large audience! But even so, I'll always love the community. Personally, I don't mind the toxic side too much unless they do something really bad (like harassing people for their opinions or the VAs), since I just block them and stop interacting so they don't appear in my feed. But what about the people who love this series? What about the people who, even if they're unhappy, still show love for this series, even if it's not necessarily on the videos themselves but on the efforts of other fans? Those people steal my heart. They make me feel that it's worth continuing to create art for this show. They make me feel like I'm part of something that, even in its low moments, is wonderful.

Because the wonderful thing about shows, movies, video games, all kinds of media, will always be their fandom, it will always be the people who aren't obligated to do anything for the shows and still do. I hope that the people who have felt bad about the direction the show is taking can at least find something enjoyable in the community. I hope that, even if they leave the fandom completely, they can look back and think fondly of what so many people poured their love into creating. I don't adore TSAMS (which is the only channel I watch besides Femme's, about which I have... opinions). I don't love it entirely; I only love the character of Sun. But even so, I'm very, very grateful for its existence! It has given me so much inspiration, it has given me a huge motivation to draw, it has shown me a community that I like being a part of despite everything!

You know, I've been thinking a lot about TSAMS and the direction the show is taking, a direction I'm not really liking too much... so how about we ignore canon for a few seconds and you listen—read—a little "What if..." that's been on my mind lately? Who knows, maybe I'll even make an AU just because I like the concept.

Do you remember the creator? I hope so! (I'm just being sarcastic, sorry.) But anyway, I always found his relationship with his creations, Sun & Moon, interesting. The idea that Sun & Moon were basically a rushed and unfinished project is intriguing to me. I think it could have led to a lot of angst, delved deeper into the story, and perhaps answered some questions the twins' behavior raises. But since the show killed off the creator way too soon, we're going to be left with those questions forever.

Anyway~ some headcanons and other stuff are coming in here, you've been warned! But it's interesting how Moon is (somewhat) portrayed as the Creator's creation who most resembles him, you know, super intelligent and a bit cynical? With a big ego? Believing he can do everything because Sun is too "soft and dumb" to be of any help? Yeah? Uh-huh... I was thinking, what if it were the other way around? What if Sun is the one who most resembles the Creator? And I don't mean the Creator we all saw on the show, I mean the Creator when he was young.

Because I don't believe that all beings are born powerful, I don't believe that everyone is born an evil mastermind! I think... that a long time ago, the Creator probably had another name, another life. I think he used to be weak, someone everyone took advantage of, pathetic until something changed and he rose to the top.

I like to think that when he created Sun and Moon, he wanted to create a being that was like his "best version" from the beginning; he tore away parts of himself that he considered "worthy and better" and gave his intelligence to Moon, his analytical mind, his cynicism, all to try to create a mini him (probably out of ego) and to Sun, he gave the things that the Creator considered pathetic and weak; kindnes and a caring nature.

That would give the family a pretty interesting dynamic:

Sun, who wants nothing to do with the Creator, ends up being the one who most resembled him in his early days, and the Creator hates him for it. He hates seeing the part of himself he thought was pathetic and weak keep going in life despite everything. I think it would make him jealous, in a "why are you like this when I can't be?" kind of way. I think he would hate that Sun succeded where the Creator himself failed, so he tries to make his life as miserable as possible because of it...

This provides a perfect opportunity to give Sun a "villain arc." A scenario where Sun couldn't take the pressure anymore and broke, just like the Creator did at some point, and it leads him down a path that would leave him in the same shoes as the Creator: a person who grew weary of life and decided to bite back! Oh, the angst! Sun, realizing that he is becoming more and more like the Creator but unable to stop because everything in his life is terrible... perhaps Sun could emerge unscathed, saying "life is shit but I remain true to myself and my principles" and doing something the Creator failed to do: remain a good person even when life spits in your face.

...Or perhaps he could fail, perhaps Sun would end up just like the Creator, dying at someone's hands because Sun is so far gone that there's no saving him.

It would be almost poetic no matter which way the story turns, it doesn't matter if Sun triumphs or not, what matters is that at the end of the day, the Creator and Sun are the same, that dynamic of not being two sides of the same coin, but being the same side that ended up falling either in the same place, or in a completely different one.

Oh geez! Tough question, huh, Anon? I have to admit, I don't watch much TSAMS these days. I only check out the videos that mention Sun and try to skim the others, usually reading the comments instead of watching the whole thing.

The reason? I don't like the direction the story is taking. I started watching TSAMS almost two years ago, and only because I love Sun. Seriously, I'm obsessed with him specifically, not the show as a whole. It was interesting at first, but then they made changes and introduced things I didn't like. I don't like how little they take Sun's mental health seriously! He's such a complex character (and that's probably unintentional, considering how they sometimes just brush aside some of the traumatic events Sun went through) that it's a shame he has such a small role.

And I mean it! They give us so much information about how important Sun is, how he is this and that and so on... and then I feel like they do absolutely nothing with him! Consequences? What consequences! I feel like so many things go unpunished when it comes to Sun, as if what happens to him is something easily forgotten; Moon, Bloodmoon, Ruin, Dark Sun, Nexus, Dazzle... so many characters who were supposed to have an impact on Sun and then we never see anything more of them and how their actions/presence affected Sun in one way or another? I know the videos aren't that long, I know Sun is supposed to be healing, I know it's a series and I shouldn't take it so seriously because you can't cram so much into 12 minutes of video, but I would like things to feel like they had a real impact.

We had hallucinations, panic attacks, nightmares, etc. But it still feels like they're not handling those things well. I also don't like that they're introducing so many new characters. I feel like they're either there for five minutes or they take the focus away from what's happening to the main characters, which again, I don't like because I already feel like they're not developing them properly. And then they introduce even more characters? Not only that! They basically killed off all the interesting villains/antagonists! I don't want to hear about the emo Cosmo! I wanted to see more of The Creator, Dark Sun, Killer Sun, or Ruin!

I don't know what could be considered a "hot take" or an unpopular opinion because, honestly, aside from uploading fan art, liking other fan art, or reading some fan fiction, I don't interact much with the fandom. But perhaps my "hot take" is that I hate Moon's new "son." I hate him. Because for me, Moon is a complicated character, a love-hate kind of thing, but I don't think he's father material, not when he barely seems like an uncle to Dazzle! And Dazzle! My girl! I feel like I hardly ever see her. Which is a shame because her whole storyline is so tragic!

In general, I try to keep up with the show, but I'm not as involved in it as I used to be. I think... if it weren't for the immense love I have for Sun as a character, I would have abandoned the fandom years ago.

“Look at him, indulging in flesh and blood!” —quote from the fanfic

It's finally finished! Do you know how much trouble this little piece of fan art gave me? A lot! A whole lot! This isn't even the original version! My iPad decided to play tricks on me and crashed; I didn't even have a backup because my entire canvas was ruined... so I had to redraw it all from scratch.

I like how it turned out, but not too much. Not because I think it's ugly, but because I liked the original better! Unfortunately, I'm not a printer and I couldn't replicate the original drawing 100%, so there are small details that changed or were completely lost. So I hope the author of the fanfic likes it anyway!... because yes, this is from a fanfic! It's actually a "what if..." scenario from another fanfic, so I'm going to include the links to both fanfics so you can read them!

A warning; These fanfics touch on serious topics like depression and suicide, so please read them with caution and only if you think you can handle the heavy reading. I even take breaks between chapters myself because, although I love the fanfics (both are so beautifully written that my mom has heard a lot about them! She's just as into it as I am), I know when something is a bit too intense for me and I prefer to read slowly and more calmly. Aside from that, enjoy!

"Original"

https://archiveofourown.org/works/56824912/chapters/144477184

"What if..."

Here are the versions without my crappy shading XD

Do you have a tsams oc?

Omg!! This is the first time anyone's asked me a question! Hi, Anon!

My favorite TSAMS character is definitely Sun (although I have a soft spot for Nexus).

I think Sun is my favorite character because:

A) The first time I saw the show, I liked his voice and he instantly became my favorite.

B) I can really relate to Sun as a character.

There's so much potential in Sun's character (his backstory, his attitude, the way he's the only "original" who hasn't died) that I find simply fascinating! And while I don't like all the decisions the show makes regarding his character, I have to admit that Sun seems incredibly level-headed when facing problems in the story and I like that. I really kin him, so that's why he's my favorite <3

And yes! I have some OCs, they're quite old because I made them when I first started watching the show, so they're a bit...bland, so I plan to redraw them at some point!

We have Cloud-dia... you know, because her wool looks like a cloud? Hehe... since English isn't my first language, puns are hilarious to me! The other one is a... Sun-sona? Something like that. I made him when Dark Sun appeared, and I really liked the idea of a "villainous" Sun, but I never did much with him, and now his concept art is being used for other... projects I have ;)

Alright... I know it took me a long time to upload this, but just a few weeks ago I took the most important exam of my life and I was so stressed that I couldn't do anything but... well, do nothing... but we're back!

I'll start by saying that, while this AU (shattered star) is based on a nightmare I had, now that it's a full-fledged AU, I had to adapt things from my nightmare to fit the narrative I envisioned for the AU, so some things will be reworked (or I've simply given them a deeper meaning because I'm dramatic creative!).

First, I'll cover the basics: character design, their meanings, and so on. Then I'll upload more lore-related content!

P.S: I used the names Cosmo and Terra, but this AU is set before the name changes; I just like the way Cosmo and Terra sound better.

Goldy and Sun are physically similar but have notable differences:

• Goldy has heterochromia, while Sun has gray/white eyes. Someone couldn't bear to look the backup in the eyes and had to change the gaze that seemed to judge them.

• Goldy has a much more feminine appearance than Sun. This is intentional and has something to do with the lore, so I can't reveal too much... but let's just say that the task of reconstructing Sun's body was given to someone who doesn't have a very accurate vision of what Sun looked like.

•Goldy is a collage of family clothing items (I really enjoy doing this in other AUs I have), each representing a family member and their role in his life! For example: Terra's sweater, a soft and warm garment, matches her personality and how she approaches Goldy! Moon would never let him run away, so of course he would be the one to give him a restrictive garment :)

•The ribbons with bells are a physical indication of how "young" Goldy is (because we have to remember that he's a backup, not a new animatronic, not a New Moon 2.0, but a backup). He's from a time further back, when it was just Moon and Sun, when everything was whimsical and fun~ ... I wonder how Moon explained the new relatives and friends that "came out of nowhere" to Goldy *whoops*.

•The fact that Goldy's shirt is whiter and simpler than Sun's is also intentional (I had to check the original drawing to make sure I picked the colors right). Goldy is "young", somewhat naive, not "tainted" by the horrors... and that's what makes people baby him. Sun was more serious, more mature, and he broke away from his role as a daycare attendant to be something more, his own person, in a way that Goldy hasn't yet learned, so Sun is more grown-up, more... "tainted."

•The small differences are just that, a way to differentiate Goldy from Sun

I still have a lot of things to work on in this AU! Maybe I'll write a fanfic (and that's a huge maybe, I'm not a very good writer), but I already have other things in the works, like a short animation! Yes...an animation. It's only the second time in my life I've animated something, so let's hope it turns out well.

Stay tuned to find out how this story develops, and don't hesitate to ask any questions!

Also...the nickname Goldy doesn't quite convince me, even if I wanted to make a joke about the atomic number of gold, so if anyone has any suggestions, I'm all ears!...eyes?

OG POST:

Okay, this new episode definitely took me by surprise, but I love it! Now I have more material for my AU, which...damn, 305 attempts to bring him back? In my AU, I had a specific number because I wanted to be funny and make a double reference with Sun's nickname in my AU: "Goldy". and the atomic number of gold since it is somewhat related to the sun, so it would have been 79 times...but 305? That's sooo angsty!

And his voice?! It's nice to hear Sun sounding all whimsical and fun again! I adore him, and I'll definitely take some inspiration from this episode to shape my Sun's personality.

In case anyone was curious about the drawing in the background photo, here's a version without shading! This is what the original Sun looks like... my shayla :( I would have liked to know how the original died in my nightmare, but there were only hints and nothing more… and I don't feel like having another nightmare just to find out the how (yes, sometimes I can continue a dream where I left it off)

I had to ask my mom a few things about my nightmare, because the first thing I did after waking up was call my mom (I'm not ashamed of that, I was fucking scared, I wanted my mom, okay?) to tell her everything, so she remembers things better than my sleepy self!

So...other things that happened in the nightmare that I kind of forgot or didn't know where to put: apparently I told my mom that in some parts of the nightmare, the hands-thing appeared on doorframes making the "liar" sign (I know the basics of American Sign Language from a mute OC I have), and that's...creepy. I'm not going to lie, my stomach still turns a little when I think about the nightmare, it gives me chills!

...My mom also scolded me and told me I should stop reading so many horror stories when she knows I have a very active imagination, but in my defense! It's October! Spooky month!

So... yeah, I'm also part of the TSAMS fandom, and this thing has me in a death grip... so let's get started! Because this hasn't let me sleep well, I tried to draw as quick as possible to get the idea out of my head.

One thing, if anyone's interested in knowing about me, is that I have a very active imagination. I'm always creating scenarios in my head, and I tend to have very vivid dreams (one of my AUs comes from a dream of mine), but something I also have are very vivid, very...real nightmares.

This little AU is a nightmare I had, a terrible nightmare that my drawing doesn't do justice to how absolutely terrified I was during it. Even though I was just a mere spectator and could only shout words of warning to characters who couldn't hear me, I was really scared because everything was so…eerie, uncanny even.

The summary of my nightmare:

Sun wakes up in his room and just does his daily routine. He gets dressed, goes downstairs, and... no one's there, just Cleo and Muffing accompanying him. At first, I didn't know why I was so tense in the "dream." Like... I looked around while following Sun around the house and watched him do things, but something felt wrong, VERY WRONG.

Sun also seemed tense, but it was weird because he was acting very OOC, even his clothes were different! As things progressed, I could see shadows and weird things out of the corner of my eye; the drawing is actually one of the nightmare scenes that scared me the most.

"Moon... I think there's someone here" was what Sun said in my dream, clutching a phone and his cats as we looked (yes, I'm there too, but only as a spectator) toward the dark hallway, where there was something made of MANY hands... There were so many hands, and it disgusted me terribly.

The end of the nightmare was kind of... weird. Sun discovers that he's actually a backup copy and that his family has been bringing him back to life over and over again, and the "thing" is some kind of amalgam created by all the other versions of Sun that were deleted or... self-deleted trying to break the cycle.

While it wasn't as graphic as other nightmares I've had, the feeling that something was wrong, that something was watching us, that someone was lying to us was a psychological terror that woke me up sweaty and wanting to throw up... so, here I am because I needed to get this out of my head.

Here’s a version without my shitty lighting and shadibg. I would have liked to make it a little more detailed, but i wanted to emulate the aesthetics of my nightmare.

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