— strong enough to leave you,

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I love you.

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I love you, too. And you know how much I mean that, right?

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You know, I’m laying in bed with mi princesa right now. I was telling her about my work problem and she fell asleep. If you’re still interested in hearing it, I’d really like to talk about it. Come lay with me?

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I would really like that. I’ll be there in a minute.

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I love you, too. I want more than anything to be happy with our marriage. And I don’t want you to think that I’m not willing to do anything to get that, because I swear that I am, but…. I can’t get over the fact that we didn’t get a day. One damn day to enjoy the so called honeymoon phase. It was like we skipped that part and went straight to having marital problems. What does that say about us?

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It says that we should do it over, and that we should give ourselves the chance to have that happy honeymoon phase now. Please, Ali, do this with me. Help me make our marriage work like it’s supposed to.

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You really think we can do that?

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I don’t know what I think... All I know is that I love you, and that I want this to work, so I’ll do anything I can to make sure that it does.

KING: Then what is the truth? You know me so well.

CECE: The truth is I don't really know right now. Maybe we should change the subject, because neither of us is doing good, and I don't know how to fix it.

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I don’t know how I feel about that right now. I want to be sure about this. I want to feel like we did the right thing, but the fact that we haven’t even been able to enjoy being married makes me wonder. 

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Don’t do that. Just start this over with me, like we just got married and like everything is okay. Please.

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Yeah. About us. I’m sure about what I want and about what I feel. That’s all I can be sure of. 

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But not about being married to me...

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I do love you. I love you so, so much. I’m sure about that. I’m also sure that I want to be with you. I’m afraid that’s all I’m sure of right now. 

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What do you mean you’re afraid that’s all you’re sure of? About us?

ADDIE: I do, too.

ADDIE: I know, I get that, but that doesn't make what I said any less true, you can't take care of anyone well if you're not taking care of yourself, so putting yourself last doesn't do anyone any favors.

ADDIE: It's better than nothing. Not talking at all would be worse.

ADDIE: No, it didn't give you the right, but I'm pretty sure you didn't think 'hey let me kiss her it will make Ali so mad' so they're really not related. You didn't do it to get revenge, you both fucked up, you both have to deal with it, and you both have to get to a place where you can forgive each other.

CECE: I guess you're right. I don't know, it's just weird having to deal with so much crap all at once. I'm usually the person people go to with their problems, I'm not the person who has the problems.

CECE: I don't know about that. Hearing that your marriage was a bad idea kind of blows.

ADDIE: Man, we suck.

ADDIE: It is, though. Like how do you expect to work on anything else if you're not healthy. Don't just push yourself aside.

ADDIE: Well are you two at least talking?

ADDIE: Don't do that, you messed up, but so has she, and you both love each other. It's not a matter of deserve, it's a matter of can you both get over the hurt you caused each other.

CECE: Well, I do.

CECE: I've never really been a big priority to myself, you know that. Maybe it's not healthy, but it's just the way it is.

CECE: Yeah. Not positively, but yeah, we're talking.

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Of course I do. I’ve never wanted anyone as much as I want you. That’s never changed and it never will.

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Then don’t say this was a bad idea. I wasn’t thinking straight when I said it, but I need you. I need you to be sure about this. About me. I need you to want me, and I need you to tell me you love me.

KING: I’m good. You?

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That’s what you think? That it’s me who doesn’t want you?

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Well do you? Do you want me? Because I don’t think that you do.

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Because I love you. Because I never thought I’d get the chance to be with you again. Because I’ve never wanted anything so badly in my life. And because I didn’t think it was a bad idea at the time. 

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But now you do. Now you think it’s a bad idea and you don’t want me anymore.

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I think this was done before we even had a chance to get started.

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Then why did you do it? Why did you agree to marry me?

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I have no idea why you seem so surprised. I thought we were done fooling ourselves when you left and told me yourself that we shouldn’t have gotten married. Those were your words, not mine. How else am I supposed to feel about this? We didn’t even get one day to enjoy married life. At what point was I supposed to feel like this was a good idea?

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At no point, because clearly it wasn’t a good idea. I’m done. We’re done. This is done.