â§ * âž LA VIE EN ROSE // KS + CJ
at first- her heart stops. the words have her thinking heâs going to deny her, and leave her humiliated. it begins again when he continues his train of thought, but despite the underlying almost.. bitter sweet tone he gave her, jinri smiles, hand rising to cover her mouth for a moment. â oh i thought you were gonna reject me that was the worst feeling. â she laughs off her nervousness, shaking her head at the most likely rhetorical question.
â jin you think because youâre my.. card.. that i could never be, i donât know, chained to you the way you are to me. thatâs the furthest from the truth. i am just as much yours as you are mine. i could release you and it wouldnât change a single thing about the way i feel. since itâs all out in the open now i.. â she exhales, cheeks puffing out as she reaches her hands to encircle his wrists and then slide downward so her fingers could intertwine with his.Â
â want to be with you.. not as your captor but as girl who cares about you and thinks that everything you do, no matter how mediocre is incredible. as someone who thinks that getting to spend whatever time we have together is going to be the best thing that i could have ever asked for in this life or any that come after. this is really ridiculous and cheesy but youâve become a big part of my world jin. âÂ
but she doesnât understand -- doesnât know what heâs seen: all mortals are fleeting. even proclamations of love such as this one will also come to pass. she wonât last; he, unfortunately, will. and this already hurts enough without him having to watch her leave him, too.Â
yet he doesnât take his hand away, and lets her fill the spaces between his fingers. his thumb brushes along the back of her hand, reverent, and stares at where theyâre joined. everything she says must be taken with a grain of salt, not because he doesnât trust her, but because he doesnât want to believe it so much that he ends up forgetting who he is and where heâs been and what heâs seen.Â
âyou know lots of people are going to judge us.â you, theyâre going to look down on you, jinri. i canât let them -- he brings their hands to his lips, and kisses her knuckles. âeven if -- even if it does work, which iâm hoping it will -- are you sure thatâs okay?â














