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Triptych (TW: blood)

Man I hope I don’t win no haters for nothing after this so shocking😯😯😯 reveal…if you’ve paid attention to my other posts you probably know very well that I’m highly against ship fights and it’s seriously something I avoid as much as possible, when I was a kid I once got in the rabbit hole of fighting for ships and that’s seriously the most ridiculous thing ever

If Johnny is someone’s most special f/o I’m totally respecting that and I’d never push my ship onto others, Johnny is my fav character of the game along with Pinky and that’s just it, it makes my connection with the character stronger when I have an OC to ship them with

Not to mention that…they didn’t just immediately become a couple, the two were just good mutuals/friends and the entire thing was pretty much one sided because I’m not removing the entire plot of Johnny just to ship it with Dimana, someday I gotta reveal her lore as well

Caroline…

The irony is that I’ve got to fix up some stuff on her reference sheet cause I drew it in like February😭still accurate though just with lil detail differences

I can’t even explain my relationship with her, she reminds me of past characters that bring me only pain, yet in the same time she feels like the better, the upgraded version of them and I wish to handle her as best as possible…

Also yeah her arms are veiny she’s ok just interesting genetics Diana would make fun of her ab this though

Not sure when I’ll loredrop but maybe someday when I get the courage and time..

Also is it also too ironic that I infact might be making up a bully au and might have made her and Diana yearbook pics already??? She’d be a non clique for sure, Diana would be from the bullies, I might be accidentally making up more characters from other medias as bully characters in that au but I’m not finished yet…

I let yall call me cringe ab it I’ve always been the weird kid that makes random ass multifandom mix ups

Istg the first moment I saw these two again I knew that they have all the doomed yuri potential on Earth

They’re joining my fav fem characters list as well I love them

Vent(don’t read if you don’t feel like it, paragraph 1 is only most key one)

The internet world we live in obligates me to point out that I am not a predator or a groomer and I don’t think not everyone who draws in this style should be called such names. Usually you can recognize when someone is drawing in this style with the purpose to make problematic works. I do have a story with this artstyle though, that’s what provoked me to draw this.

I’ve draw in such style before, but it was for a person who is no more in my life for reasons. I obviously am in fault for letting those things happen, I was even weaker mentally, I did things out of my morals for them in the name of making them happy but instead things just went downhill. I drew their characters in this style, which were a pro ship, I was listening and talking with them about things I simply can’t talk about without wanting to cry now. I’ve done things I’d never even think of doing, nor draw things I’d draw on my own will. I can’t tell if I was groomed since they were my age and I did it back then thinking it’s all fine and worth it, I felt lonely, I wanted them to stay, I wanted to make them the happiest, but it was never enough and they’d blame me for never doing anything. And so yeah, I associate this style with them, because I drew pieces for them(I was proud with 1 of them which was also done fully on my will, it was all of those characters looking like they came out of some anime opening, so it pretty much was innocent as well) and they themselves were very good at replicating the style too.

My idea is to get over with each association I make with them, I’ve always found this style cool and can’t just let it be dirtied by the memory of this person, so now I’ve decided that I’ll make some vent pieces with all the characters I find comfort in, that are somewhat helping me heal from that part of my life that makes me wish to die everytime I get to think, even if Caroline and Diana are pretty much toxic as well, their idea is to both desire to get better, and even if they unfortunately don’t get that chance, they still pointed out their issue and addressed that it’s wrong(in the au where they’re grown up they even manage to heal).

Hypersexuality is a serious problem that for some reason is now also caused by the mass nsfw promoting with kids media. I myself thankfully have never been a victim of SA(I’m praying for all the victims of it especially those who are close to me you all deserve all the love and protection:( ) but I’ve been exposed to porn since I was like 4, my life changed after that drastically, I’ve seen things I never should’ve and couldn’t really assimilate back then. This person was the first person I opened in detail about this, sometimes I blame myself for even sharing about this, what if I fucked them up? But then I remember how “funny” and “quirky” they found those topics(and they still do), unfortunately I got adapted to think this way even if my morals were killing me on the inside, I still had my limits though. I thought it’s just because we’re edgy idiotic teens but the fact they still are being all hyped about that shit proves me it’s not like this for everybody. I fear I might get called a hypocrite, sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve to love Rule of Rose this much and feel Diana so close even with her sassy nature, I really want to cure, it’s killing me on the inside, the intrusive thoughts and everything are still destroying me, but I learn how to control them. And now every content I do is against the things I was shown all the time, I’ve always been against pedos and I never will stop no more, everyone who’s into that shit please don’t even come close to me. Their argument was that such things happen in the real world and it’s never just sunshine and roses, which I agree, and so that’s what I’m doing too, but with the difference that there’s no fetish involved.

Kauan, Resident evil: Operation Javier OC

I mentioned this dude on my last post, yes he’s the made up love interest for Manuela Hidalgo cause she’s my fav and I just couldn’t resist making him…I won’t try on making this heteroslop at all either, they’re actually quite doomed as I said in my previous post, I’ll try to summarize why exactly.

So Kauan is the same age as Manuela, somewhere around the same height as her, he has Native American bloodline but is basically Brazilian considering the fact where he’s located (yes, his name is with indigenous origins). He has a bigger brother, their father has been a very brave and searching for justice and peace person, even when it’d include physical violence(Jimmy Hopkins ahh), maybe he has been part of the special forces in Amparo and since the Sacred Snakes cartel has been very known there for its dirty business he had an eye on Javier for a long while. Unfortunately, during an investigation, Javier’s people caught Kauan’s father and he “randomly” disappeared. Everyone assumed he was killed, but in reality Javier turned him into a B.O.W. Kauan’s mother, scared for her and her sons’ lives, went down to Mixcóatl and hid there. As assumed, they got caught on accident by Javier’s people once again, the mother got killed on spot and the boys got taken away to meet the same fate as their father(Steve burnside ahh backstory), but right when they were about to be put in the “nest” where all the “soldiers” were, the brothers attempted to escape, unfortunately only Kauan managed to run away in time because his brother got caught twice and became another zombie pet for Javier. An interesting detail is that he escapes the same day Manuela does, he arrives in Mixcóatl while she’s still searching for shelter in the jungle so basically they never really get to meet each other before Leon and Krauser’s arrival even if their events happen at the same time.

I think it’s obvious now why they’re quite doomed, Manuela’s father is the reason why Kauan’s family is all dead, but since it’s my OC and I won’t make him too brainless, even if at first he gets a little ick from the info that Manuela is Javier’s daughter(he finds out at the same time when Leon and Krauser do) the little braincells he has in his brain started working and he realises its literally not Manuela’s fault for her father’s actions so he easily forgives her which helps him see the full beauty of her nature when he got to feel her closer(I mean about character and traits like yea when he first saw her he did find her extremely beautiful but he’s not a guy just for the looks)

Of course, he’s still 16 and has childish behavior in some situations, he never really had any other contact than his family so you can imagine how nervous he was especially around Manuela since she’s his age(saying this from my own experience with people my age as a teen/barely legal adult now), terrible trait he has is to make some situations awkward, thankfully the fact that everyone there was in a life threatening situation didn’t give them opportunity to have long convos, but what I love about this made up ship of mine is how similar my OC and Manuela are at times cause let’s all be fr our girl is quite awkward at times as well😔🙏but that’s why we love her sm

So yea that’s basically a summary of my OC’s story and little function as a background character in the Operation Javier scenario, it would’ve been crazy if we could make all of our ocs canon in some way🥹in the future I might post about my headcanons and possible sequels to what happens with Manuela after she gets adopted by the US government which will include my OC I’m sorry guys if you get pissed off at such stuff and find them corny please ignore my posts ab it

Manuela Hidalgo is one of my most comfort characters

I’m a “newgen” in the Resident Evil fandom since I’m playing the games for about a year, my first game happened to be Darkside Chronicles and it’s the game that made me fall in love with the franchise. Even if many don’t know specifically this game or even tend to say it’s ass, as a newgen I can say that it was a great first game considering the fact it makes a retrospective to Resident Evil 2 and Code Veronica X events, even with many cut content it’s still a good introduction and will help me notice all the cut content when I get to play the originals. Along with that, Operation Javier is a very interesting mission imo, unfortunately it’s too short and without too much detail, yet it managed to make me get attached to Manuela so quickly, I just wish we knew what’s happening to her more further.

Thats why here comes my usual trick, making an OC to pair my fav with. So here’s my Operation Javier OC, Kauan:) he has a lore and I’ll look forward on sharing it. That ship is actually quite doomed, so they aren’t nor too sugarcoated nor too edgy(or at least I tried my best to balance them). Those two drawings where Kauan is shooting are some sort of sequel based on their interaction in game.

Happy anniversary to the game that helped me through one of my hardest times in life