moonchild

can’t sleep, but that is probably to be expected.

i haven’t used this blog in quite a while. mostly because i haven’t felt the need to. i am mostly on twitter these days, but even there it’s mainly bangtan and not–– like escapism, i guess? even though i still feel like escaping sometimes. 

i don’t know, my brain is weird. 

sometimes (a lot of times) i think about how my life would have turned out if my “inputs” were different. but then again i think that i am doing well, that i am going somewhere. i am scared that i’m settling, sometimes. but i don’t have a calling outside of this, so what would be the point? i am not some talented human being capable to express their emotions properly through any kind of medium. this is the only path i can follow. 

and that is not to say it’s a bad path; it’s pretty good, actually. that’s why i don’t feel defeated. i am still fighting for something. i am still going somewhere. 

they say you can do two things to change the world: i) be a revolutionary; ii) look at things with a positive attitude.