Feeling a bit sad today so hereās a sad with a happy ending fic
Kƶnig x insecure!reader (should be any pov I think?)
Lately, youāve been feeling a bit self conscious. Every time you look in the mirror, you look different. Bigger, slimmer, taller, shorter, hairy, smooth, cross eyed, 20/20 vision, etc. you just look.. weird
You donāt say anything because you feel like it isnāt that big of a deal. Besides, youāve dealt with this before, so it isnāt anything new, youāll overcome it, eventually. But.. thereās something about the way kƶnig interacts with everyone. Despite being a giant walking brick wall whoās extremely awkward in any given scenario, heās got a way of charming anyone that looks at him. I mean.. just look at him, a tall muscular guy who has the personality of anyoneās dream. Needless to say, it did NOT help you.
Every joke that he laughed at that wasnāt yours, every compliment that he gave that wasnāt directed towards you, every shoulder he gave to cry on that wasnāt your tears staining his clothes.. it just made you more and more self conscious.. maybe heād be better off with someone else? Maybe he doesnāt need you? Maybe.. maybeā¦
Eventually it becomes too much, and one day, you just break down. Itās not loud, or grand, or even public. Itās in the safety of your guys home, in the living room, when you guys are playing games together. The thoughts just overwhelm you, and the sound of his voice just makes you recoil in a way that you never wanted. The first tear comes suddenly. Then the next, and then the next. And soon enough, youāre staring at a paused screen with shaky hands, kƶnigs arms wrapped around you asking what happened and if youāre okay. You obviously canāt respond because.. well, youāre crying a waterfall.
āSchatz? Whatās wrong? Why are you crying?ā He asks in a worried voice, concerned with the sudden change in atmosphere. Hm, actually, only sudden to him, as this has been building in you for the past week or so. You try to explain āYou- those people- I canāt-!ā Saying gibberish between breaths, before taking one deep gulp of air, letting it all out in a shaky sigh, almost as shaky as your hands āI just canāt take it anymore.. am I seriously the one you want? I see all of these beautiful men and women you talk to, how you treat them, how they treat you.. Iām not as..ā you let yourself stop to think. Not as what? You donāt really know, all you know is that they arenāt you, and it hurts
āLook at me.ā Kƶnig raised his voice, not to scare or command you, but to bring your thoughts back to the present. āBelieve me when I say, I love you and only you. Compared to you, these people are just background characters. Just noise, nothing else. I love and adore absolutely everything about you, I compare everyone to you just because I canāt get you out of my mind, sometimes itās not even intentional, itās just a habit that Iāve gotten used to. Itās almost impossible to go a single second not thinking about you, even when Iām with other people and on the field, you are what fills my mind. I love you, so so much.ā He ends it all with a long kiss to your forehead
Itās been 3 months since that breakdown, and youāve been feeling a lot better. Kƶnig holds you a bit closer and tighter whenever he speaks to someone, never wanting you to feel less than ever again. <3