The Horror

Hi bbface, Just to let you know that I'm bored and tired of working on my music for nothing. I cannot see myself getting signed, I'm being blocked by many powerful people. Harrison Ford and Jim Morrison, the Illuminati and the Freemasons, echelons of the music industry, Spotify and YouTube are Doctoring my listens/views. Notice if you will the idiots in the acting world and music, females who are copying your looks and styles. I'm so sorry bbface but know that they look like sheer crap compared to who they are mirroring. They are the devil's own. God loves us two, bbface but if we are not destined to meet in this life, I will see you when we are both safe in Heaven afterwards, ok? I'm not prepared to work on half working synths and semi-operational sampler and half decent mixing desk with barely enough leads to rope it together, just to work like a mule to produce something that would take me less than half the time to produce in a professional studio with twice the quality of product in the making... I am not prepared to go into a hired studio and have my work stolen and copied by them, just to be ignored by doctored listening and viewing figures on YouTube and Spotify. Harrison Ford. Jim Morrison. Robert De Niro (He took up an electronic music career after being inspired by my work.) Al Pacino. Michelle Pfeiffer. Alicia Silverstone. Gwen Stefani. That little lot are working on keeping me down, humiliating me with their efforts to get me to let Paul Ashcroft of Status Quo into buggering me into a satanic record deal where I am conned into a fate worse than death and then probably murdered on top of that! Carrie Fisher Ray Liotta Stanley Kubrick Rick Parfit of Status Quo David Bowie A whole bunch of other meaningless bastard who died in this war between OUR GOD IN HEAVEN and the pig, satan. Be very careful with yourself, bbface. I'm not posting for a while yet, maybe on fb where I'm being spied on by the above and others. They are shitting their pants about being killed in this war and more of them will die. Keep an eye on the news and on my site here for any more news but I feel like going into hiding for some time. I hope you understand, my treasure, my homie, my best friend, lover and chosen wife. I love no other, I live for you. Your Ralph x

Hi bbface. I'm going to wait for a couple more weeks before I do anything because I need to order a microphone from the net and this will take about two weeks to sort, or a bit less than that. I have a strong idea for a song that I want to record and it will be guitar and synths with me programming the drums and me on voice... I guess that I'm going to write songs from now on this way until I can figure out a way to sing for a band or play guitar and vocals. Anyway, I've been enjoying the rest that has transpired. I worked my balls off for all that stuff that's on the net and all that has happened has been me being messed around by the squarest people in the world - the record company people. They all know I'm here, they are spying on me and spreading gossip and lies about me. If any of those bastards were real and not phony and dirty, I would have been supported as an artist many years ago. Pretty soon I will begin slogging my guts out on the guitar again, maybe get up to the level of Untitled 144 on the YouTube Channel and maybe somehow by some ridiculous twist of fate, somebody will get me out of this embarrassing situation and let me get to my wife? I love thee, Lisette. I always will love thee. Your Ralph x

Sorry for being so quiet. I had a nuisance cold to get over. I've been trying to get the energy to work but will have to wait until this weekend to make an effort. To be honest, bbface, I'm out of energy and am not looking forward to working on my music again. I'm sure I'll snap out of it once I get down to work and start banging some ideas out. I only want you, bbface. I am at my wits end and am actually scared right now in case I fail. I'm just about to go to bed and cuddle up with your wifey photo on my phone. You are the only good thing I have to love the way I love you so. Here's to you, bbface, may you be happy and content and say a prayer for me and my work which I should hope to post results up on tumblr here and on Spotify under Ralph Essex. Also, I may have work posted under Catgotwasted on Spotify in a few days, also. I love you my sweetheart darling and will always love you beyond compare. Your Ralph x

Story of my life and what I want imprinted in my gravestone.

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Hey bbface, I received the cables I ordered today and got the mixing desk on Friday just passed. The mixing desk does work, it is not amazing but I get level out of it and the graphics section and the effects seem to be working... It is enough for me to begin work anew. I will be making a lot of samples for the time being and loading up my EMU E5000 ULTRA SAMPLER with them. Song starters, if you will? I need to test my Korg MS2000 Synthesizer which is here on my desk alongside my Roland Juno-G synthesizer. If all goes to plan, I will be using these synths a lot combined with the sampler and will be making original beats on my Reason 12 Studio DAW on my computer. Rome wasn't built in a day, Lisette. I have about 12 hours of sampling work I need to carry out, I spent about £56 on cables and around £85 on getting the mixing console. There is much to do and beyond all, I hope to be making brand new tracks within the end of the week. I expect that I will be up all night tonight, working between my computer and the sampler, the work should be 80% better than all of the work I have made so far... So bbface, fingers crossed and just this one more leap of faith is necessary from you over the next 5 or 6 months for me to get a product that will bypass all of the internet swearing and curses I have spilled whilst being mostly stuck on my own, tormented and bewildered. I love you with all of my heart and soul, your pretty face is all I can ever hope to kiss. Your Ralph x

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