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here to spread the Kairi Appreciation Agenda π€ Soriku are my sons and I love them
alrighty so. I already have two posts where I shared my KH fic series, but I wanted to make a new, more polished one, so here we are.
the strength of our hearts
Sometimes, all it takes to cut through the darkness is a connection.
A rewrite of the Kingdom Hearts series after KH2.
general fic info:
main playlist (yes I know it's insanely long at the moment, I'm going to condense it into a much shorter playlist sometime soon so it works better for the entire series.)
the word "rewrite" implies that I dislike KH as it is, which is very much not true. I just had a cool idea and wanted to rewrite the entire series to tell a new version of the story with my idea in mind.
there will be a total of 3 main fics in the series, with maybe one or two shorter ones to fill in the gaps. the first two main fics are already posted and I'm working on them at the same time to maintain continuity, as they are parallel stories and will eventually converge at the end of the first fic. these fics cover the entire story from the end of KH2 to just before the beginning of KH3, while the third fic will focus on KH3 and ReMind.
this story is heavily Soriku & Destiny Trio focused. not to say that the other characters and relationships aren't important, it's just that Sora, Riku, and Kairi are the heart of my story.
Soriku is a veeeeery slow burn in this series. but! it's for a good reason! I'm not going to leave you all hanging when it comes to their relationship and how it develops. it's going to be good, trust me!!
Kairi is aromantic. this is very important for her side of the story. of course, it's not all of who she is. but it affects every part of her life, and her being in the closet makes that much more difficult... and that's exactly what I want to explore in this series. :)
if I list a relationship in the tags, it will be explored in the fic. I won't tag relationships that aren't important to anyone's characterization or development at some point in the story. if I don't tag a major trio or friendship or something, that relationship is still present, it's just not given as much attention as the tagged relationships.
most of the KH3 arc of the story is inspired by Sleeping Realm theory and the posts I've made about that theory. many of the changes I've made for my fic serve the purpose of supporting the topics and themes the Sleeping Realm theory presents. thus, my series puts a lot of emphasis on love (in all of its forms), sacrifice, and the importance of memories.
the strongest theme in my story is that of finding yourself through connection. this is the core of every single character arc in the entire series. I didn't plan for this btw, it just sorta happened. but I really like this direction for KH's story, so it stuck. :)
there are content warnings in the chapter notes & on this post, but the series isn't nearly as upsetting as it sounds. the warnings are only there to tell you what to expect. I promise it isn't too bad, there's just a lot of heavy stuff in the subtext.
when KH4 releases, I'm going to continue this series with a fourth main fic. but I want to finish writing what I have planned so far before I start working on post-ReMind stuff.
WARNING: from this point on, this post contains a bunch of spoilers for future chapters of these fics. tread carefully! if you don't want too many spoilers, but you still want to know what my fic is about, just go directly to the series using the link above and read the tags there.
pt. 1: mend the chains (undo the hurt)
current chapter count: 3/14
current word count: 15,911
A letter from a dear friend finds its way to Sora and Riku in the realm of darkness. But when the door appears and the two walk through it, itβs not the Islands they see on the other side.
At the end of KH2, the door of light takes the boys to Castle Oblivion instead of Destiny Islands.
relationships & dynamics:
Soriku (best friends to lovers)
implied Namixi (eventual QPR)
background Destiny Trio (close, lifelong friendship) (I only label it as background here because Kairi isn't with Sora and Riku for most of this fic. the focus is primarily on Sora and Riku, just with a lot of mentions of Kairi throughout the fic.)
Sora & all of his heart roommates (I don't think any single word can properly encapsulate this group's dynamic in my fic lol)
Vanitas vs. literally everyone else (he has one goal and he will fight every single person he runs into just to reach it)
content warnings:
panic attacks & meltdowns (esp. in the first few chapters; they become less prominent as the story goes on for reasons I can't explain yet without spoiling a lot.)
POV alternating (it's entirely based on vibes, idk what to tell you.)
lots of talking about Thingsβ’οΈ
very introspective
memory loss/recovery
canon-typical memory issues
fluff & angst
lots of emotional hurt/comfort
everyone needs a hug BADLY (and I do mean everyone lol)
Kairi appreciation :)
Riku is embarrassingly gay for Sora (and vice versa, but this fic's focus is on Riku's queerness for the most part)
the plot of Dream Drop Distance happens in this fic but the Mark of Mastery exam & all of the Xehanort shenanigans are absent. I can't say anything else rn sadly because I'd be spoiling my favorite chapters in the fic, and I really want those to be a surprise...
Castle Oblivion is a character for plot reasons (it wanted to be a character and. well. here we are)
Xehanort doesn't exist until I say so
Xion and Repliku are trans girls. Xion is already out of the closet by the time she returns in this fic (obviously), but Repliku has a long way to go before her egg gets cracked. but dw, it'll happen in this fic.
Castle Oblivion has a lot of lore. most of it is my explanation for the castle's weirdness. some of it I literally just made up because I thought it was interesting & that the plot would benefit from it. (more on this in another post. the lore is not really focused on in my story so I have to yap about it on here instead.)
the core idea for this fic was heavily inspired by Re:Coded. I'm sure you can see how lol.
The dark corridor closed too soon, and Kairi finds herself separated from her best friends all over again. But she's not going to wait another year for them to come home. There's no room for fear or doubt; Sora and Riku are out there somewhere, and Kairi won't rest until the three of them are together again.
Post-KH2 canon divergence fic; in which the door of light doesn't take Sora and Riku to Destiny Islands, and Kairi is left to pick up the pieces on her own.
relationships & dynamics:
Destiny Trio (close, lifelong friendship; they are not normal about each other at all ever) (also Sora and Riku aren't present, but I won't let that stop me from making this a Destiny Trio relationship study fic!)
one-sided Sokai (kind of; Kairi thinks she loves Sora romantically, but she doesn't.)
background Soriku (childhood friends to rivals to kind of enemies to best friends to lovers; at least that's how Kairi sees their relationship)
Kairi & Mickey & Donald & Goofy (developing friendship, mentors & mentee, or the Disney Dads and their newly adopted daughter; all three are valid interpretations)
Kairi & a bunch of Disney characters (she makes many new friends on her adventures!!)
Kairi & Lea (enemies to allies & good friends)
Kairi & Terra (developing friendship; technically master & apprentice but Terra only ever treats Kairi as an equal.)
background Wayfinder Trio (adopted family, lifelong friendship) (same as Destiny Trio; they don't have to be together for me to make this fic about their relationship!)
content warnings:
somewhat excessive self-blame, low self-esteem
deep loneliness & isolation (especially in chapter 1)
implied suicidal ideation (but it's only once at the end of chapter 1)
implied internalized aphobia
canon-typical death/fading from existence (only in one chapter though)
canon-typical possession
parental trauma (Eraqus was trying, but he was not a good father. the Wayfinder Trio are not okay.)
Xehanort and the Nort Court are their own content warning
general information:
end of game: KH2 (starts right when Kairi gets separated from Sora and Riku before the final battle with Xemnas)
references to the manga & light novels
language of flowers (not as much as part 1 though)
very introspective
emotional hurt/comfort
Kairi is dealing with a lot of compulsory heterosexuality
POV Kairi (but switches sometimes to other characters)
Kairi goes on adventures!!!
spite-fuelled defiance of destiny (the only destiny she's going to embrace is with the two dorks she calls her best friends!!!)
mostly inspired by KH3 (the worlds Kairi visits are all ones Sora visited in KH3)
Mickey Mouse and his canon-typical concerned dad energy
includes many headcanons about the history & culture of Destiny Islands
Kairi's foster parents are Raine Whispers and Eda Clawthorne from The Owl House (yes there is lore here, not sure if I want to do anything big with it yet though)
Kairi's Radiant Garden origins go almost completely unmentioned in this fic
the Datascape from Re:Coded makes an appearance in this fic as one of the worlds Kairi visits! no spoilers though :)
Lea and Terra don't show up immediately; Kairi meets each of them later on in the fic
playlists:
main
Kairi
[more TBA soon]
additional links
character design infodump #1
flower lore introduction post!
heart-flowers #1
excerpt from part 3: elegy of memory
part 3 scene playlists
infodump about CoM ideas for part 1
aromantic Kairi thoughts
final notes
this is all I've got for now! I'm really excited about this fic series and I wanted to share it in a way that was less vague and hopefully easier to read. I'll make another post like this when I start working on part 3. I'll also probably update this one a few times as I update the fics. hope you enjoyed reading my ideas, please feel free to tell me what you think :)
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I think the guys who say "Not everything has to be romantic, can't two guys just be normal friends." are probably the same guys who say that people of the opposite sex cant be friends and that those friendships always turn romantic and/or sexual. Anyways, ship whatever the fuck you want, they're not real people so it doesnt fucking matter. You want it to be romantic then make it romantic, you want it to be platonic then make it platonic, just dont tell other people what to do with their headcannons and shipping stuff, people need to stop fucking gatekeeping fun.
listen I know it won't help much but my blorbo is suffering and I want to shake him until he feels better. brain damage? no, no, you don't understand, I am going to shake him like I do a kitten when said kitten jumps on the counter. I am going to shake him the way I would shake maracas full of hamsters. the trauma and self hatred will be shaken out of this little guy or else
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I feel like people confuse liking an abusive character for defending them. which I can understand because I have absolutely been guilty of this in the past! but now that I'm the one who likes an abusive character, I find myself very frustrated with the confusion.
I like Jax. I think she is an interesting character because of how fucked up she is and what she could've been if she had let herself be vulnerable and grow. that doesn't mean I would defend an irl Jax. I absolutely fucking would not. I'm honestly very much like Gangle irl, I would be miserable around anyone like Jax. so like, I know Jax is abusive. I agree that she was a piece of shit, and I still like her as a character.
that doesn't mean I think abuse is okay. this is fiction, I can like whatever the hell I want. tbh if you somehow think fiction shouldn't be the place where people explore and enjoy morally questionable things, you need to think about what that means for society. if we can't explore our darker thoughts and impulses in a place that's designated for people to do that safely, where else do you think people will start to explore those things? do you really want people to just bottle things up until they become the monsters you admonish people for writing about? because I certainly don't.
if you want people to understand abuse and recognize it for what it is, being abusive to people who like abusive characters is not going to accomplish that. being hostile won't fix anything. keep having honest conversations about abuse, but don't bully or harass people for enjoying, relating to, or otherwise engaging with abusive characters.
also, ffs, just because I spend time defending Jax as a character doesn't mean I would defend Jax as a person. I absolutely do not think she is anything other than abusive towards others. but some of you are literally making shit up to be mad about, and I'm tired of it. me saying "hey this didn't happen, can we maybe hate on this character for things they actually did" is NOT the same as saying "nothing this character did has ever been abusive actually, you're just lying". also, implying that someone is dangerous or predatory because they like FICTION that is NOT REALITY is absolutely insane, and I can't believe this is something that has happened more than once in this fandom.
anyways. for obvious reasons, I'm taking a long break from the TADC fandom. the only part of it I will be engaging with is on AO3. at least there, people are chill about these things. I can read about Jax going to therapy in peace over in fanfiction land. Gooseworx is a saint for continuing to interact with the fans after everything. we don't deserve her.
I really wish I had the skill to draw so I could have an actual visual reference for the matching Destiny Trio Keyblades I came up with for my fic series (and their Stations of Awakening). I think I did a good job describing Kairi's new Keyblade in the excerpt from part 3, but if I could I would totally draw it too. same goes for Sora and Riku's new Keyblades (which I haven't shared yet, but I do have a design in mind for each of them already).
actually, about the Stations of Awakening, I already have written descriptions for Sora and Riku's Stations. it's because I was originally going to have Kairi see their Stations too in her dream in chapter 1, but I ended up scrapping that idea because it didn't fit the chapter. and unfortunately, I lack the skill to turn those into drawings. it's really sad because I do have some skill with art. it's just that I push down too hard with my pencil, which makes my hands hurt even when I'm just writing, so I've never had the chance to develop those skills. it's a bad habit that I can't break, I've only been able to manage it by using fountain pens or just typing on my typewriter or iPad instead of writing on paper. this probably wouldn't be a problem if I had access to good tools for digital art, but I don't, so. :(
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trying not to vibrate out of my skin rn because my awesome friend finally finished CoM and now they can start KH2 the next time we hang out. I'm so fucking excited holy moly. my friend has also officially become a Soriku fan after CoM (they watched a modded playthrough so they know about the pronoun thing) and I can't wait to see their reaction to everything that happens in KH2. they're gonna lose their shit I just know it (and I will be right there with them lol)
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Love that Ryland Grace is the opposite of so many male protagonist "heroes" in media and yet he's still so incredibly brave, resilient, and strong. That flimsy little science teacher saves the day.
But he also,
Throws fits when things don't go his way. Not a "I'm a bad bitch" destroying everything-type fit, but tossing a trash can, breaking a screen-type fit.
Cries. A lot.
Pleads. He begs.
Doesn't answer the call to action.
Shows weakness. Being a coward and being fearful are two things he defines himself with.
Doesn't end up with the girl. In fact, that girl isn't even interested and he isn't, either.
Cherishes friendship over a romantic plot or something stereotypically brave like, "I'm going to save Rocky so I can save his world." No, he wants to save his friend, first and foremost.
Squeaks. He squeals. He screams, loudly and very high pitched. He whines. He complains. He physically struggles to open a jar. He's clumsy as hell. He makes some of the least graceful noises one can make.
Is not afraid to be the primitive species lowkey.
I love him and everything he stands for as a male protagonist. Men need to know that they can be just like Ryland Grace and still be just as much of a hero and a man.
why do ppl do drugs when you can just experience the absolute high of meeting someone who isnβt just unhinged about your fandom but is also feral about your otps
