a sleepy cat writer

MASTERLIST.

polaroids — jegulus. explicit. non-linear narrative mystery with alternating povs. trans regulus. pre & post war. || wip 134k+ [22/?]

watercolors — jegulus. mature. modern au. mute artist regulus and soccer player james. || wip 71k+ [10/?]

i'm gonna cut straight to the chase. i realistically don't think i'm gonna be able to finish my fics. my health continues to deteriorate and it's just not looking good. every time i try to muster up the energy to write, i don't get super far before i have to stop again. in these past two years, i've probably written like, 5,000 words between all three fics, when before that was my minimum per chapter. i know everyone has been waiting patiently and i thank you all for that. but i also know that continuing to ask you to wait is cruel and possibly not something i can promise would ever be resolved. i never wanted to abandon these fics, but life has unfortunately chosen for me.

that being said, i wanted to ask you all, my readers, what you wanted moving on from here. do you want these fics to remain as they are, where you can imagine the endings you want? or do you want me to give the bullet points i had plotted out till the end of these fics? my writing style is very unconventional. i don't properly outline every detail of my stories before writing, i just let the words flow and the story takes form chapter by chapter, but i do have plot points i wish to hit and a finale in mind as a semi-make shift road map. it isn't perfect, but it's how i've always written. it's also why trying to write now is so hard.

if you guys want the bullet points, please let me know.

i thank all of you for your continued support and patience over these last few years. i know i didn't deserve it, but every single person who read my stories means the world to me. truly, thank you. from the bottom of my heart. all i ever wanted to do was write, and for the short time i got to do it, i felt nothing but joy.

Bc I was thinking about how this kind of au wouldn’t work with jegulus and it hit me “wow it’s perfect for rosekiller they’re both crazy freaks”

i'm gonna admit the ultimate gay person crime.

i haven't seen either of these shows...

I KNOW DON'T KILL ME!! i am just a very tired cat with adhd and sitting down to watch shows is very hard for me cause i get restless. i have to multi task most of the time and then i feel like i'm missing too much. i don't even have cable or satellite tv, plus i'm stealing the family's netflix account lol.

i want to thank you all for your endless patience and grace. it has made this whole ordeal so much easier to get through. and i can finally saw with certainty, that i am back and working on an update.

this one is for you guys. thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Sending all my love and what little energy i have left <33

oh absolutely. the girls are living their best lives but they're also fuming!! as soon as they know there will be hell to pay. lily specifically doesn't really have the job luxury to drop everything and travel across the world to beat up her friends, but marlene, mary, and dorcas will figure out a way to get them all there one way or another!

I found this on Pinterest and I thought wow st&ed core

Hey everyone. Long time no see. I want to once again thank you for your patience in waiting for updates, reassure you that none of my fics are abandoned, and give you an update about what is going on.

So, longest story short, I've been in the middle of both a physical and mental health episode that started around April but has only since gotten worse. I have a compromised immune system, but it's not enough to keep me house bound full time. It just means I get sicker more frequently and more intensely than others do. What could be exhaustion from a hot day could easily turn into a flare up of fever and leave me in bed. If I get too emotional reading something and cry a lot, it has turned on me and gotten me sick the next day in the form of sinus infections or a bronchitis flare up. It's something I've struggled with for almost my whole life and it just hit me back to back to back these past few months. On top of my pre-existing lung conditions which always suffer in the summer with the heat, I just got dogged down very fast and I was spending more time in bed sick than I was outside of bed able to function normally.

On the mental side of things, I had to change dosages of my migraine medication a few months ago, and it led to me having to go to the emergency room. Since then my finances have been struggling due to a cost I didn't expect and since I live alone, it has been hard for me to play catch up. It's drained me emotionally and along with normal depression, and I was just trying to survive paycheck to paycheck. I am still not in a place I want to be, but I realistically can't wait to be in that place, because who knows when, or if, it'll ever come.

And the third thing is my lovely beta. She is an essential part of my creative process, I bounce ideas off of her, she makes sure my writing doesn't sound like shit, all the good things that come from a beta. But she is also my best friend. Due to my situations and her situations, we have had a lot less contact in the past few months and I don't want to add to her stress with what's going on. She is also on the other side of the world, so trying to find times that work for both of us has gotten harder. And I want to spend the time I do get with her on just being us, not having to fuss over fanfics.

The updates will start again fairly soon. Just give me a little more time to try and settle into my new reality.