I heard your Ending ment from fancon.. Ah.. Minhyuk..
I've always considered you my best friend. I always rely on you, I tell you all my days and I've been for the past 931 days. I love and I care for you so much I find it impossible not to feel you as close as a best friend.
Because of this, as we both consider each other friends, let me give you an advice: as hard as it is, please try focusing on the present and not the future or past.
I know you're a deep thinker, I think a lot often too, but it only hurts us doing so. The future is unknown, unsure and something we can only control to a certain point. Talking about myself, I find it almost scary and it makes me anxious. So please, if it makes you feel like that too, focus on the second you're living in.
Said this, let's talk about everything you say in the ment.
You say when we will forget about Monsta x.. ah let me stop it here already.
Talking about myself again, I WON'T forget Monsta X. Maybe life will make it impossible to support you as I've been doing the past three years of my life, but it's very different from forgetting. I don't know if it's a wrong wording or a mistranslation, but it's literally impossible to forget you all unless I get a bad illness. You've been an important part of my life and this makes it impossible to forget you. Did you forget your childhood best friend? You don't remember who they are anymore? Have you forgotten everything you've done together and have no memories left? I still remember them, and I guess you do too.
The precious memories we are making together, even if maybe aren't too many, will forever stay closed safely in my mind and heart.
Being friends with 3M people is very hard, I admit. You have such a big heart though and I know somehow we all fit in there. In the same way, you fill our hearts.
I often believe I don't do enough for you to consider me your friend, but your behavior makes me feel like you are so close to me. I literally live on the other side of the world, yet you manage to make me feel loved and special, even if you don't even know how I look like or who am I. Maybe you won't get along every single one, because it's pretty impossible, but just the thought of you trying makes you a wonderful person. It's something we really appreciate.
I really love your strong will to be a better person everyday and admire you for that.
Whatever you do and whatever happens, you will stay my dear friend Minhyuk, who I never call as a brother because I don't like the word I have to use ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ can I call you hyung? it sounds so much better. I'm a girl but you're my hyung if you accept it! ㅋㅋㅋ I can't be informal because of this website.. and because I don't want to be disrespectful. But hyung feels good ㅋㅋㅋ
Anyways, what I mean is that I accepted you in my life as a friend a long, long time ago, and friends are forever, no matter what happens or where life brings us.
Again, sometimes thoughts bring us down a lot. Thinking stuff like "I have to be happy" doesn't help either. Especially, because we don't have to be always happy. Honestly, I've been feeling your sadness this whole time, I saw it in your eyes even the first and only time we actually met at hi-touch.
I haven't been feeling really happy either lately. You know that, even if I tend to hide it from my letters when I can, because I don't want to be a weight to you. But, ever since I write you "let's be happy together" that helped me as well. Because that doesn't just mean "we have to be happy" but it means "let's heal, slowly but together". We all have our wounds and sometimes they hurt more than we thought it could. But when you're with a friend, everything feels lighter.
I am so thankful you can let out your deep thoughts to us too. This makes me feel like a dear friend of yours even more. I hope that talking to us can help you too.
Going through some hard moments together will turn into a memory as well, you're right. It can make us stronger, our bond grows stronger too.
Through everything we will have to go through, let's stick together. In good or bad, I will be by your side, always and till life let me do so.
Thank you for being there in the past, too. But from now on, let's focus on today only.
Today, I will be a dear friend taking care of you.
Today, I'm here to listen to your thoughts, to make you feel more sure, safer in your insecurities.
Today, I'm here to mourn in sadness and cherish in happiness with you.
Today, I'm here to support you and to protect you.
Today, I'm here to have fun with you, play with you, do everything we like to do, together.
Today, I hope to have more days with you, because you're so important to me.
Today, I am proud of you for being yourself, opening up to me, doing an amazing work on stage.
Today, I'm thankful to have you by my side.
“A faint clap of thunder, Even if rain comes or not, I will stay here, Together with you.”
Again, I love you today too. I really want to see you soon..
Again, thank you, always.
Sleep well my friend. Fighting! take care..
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