Nonextant

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And now I’m standing still. The place I first saw you. Bringing everything I tried burying back into mind, the memories, the smiles, the laughter, the dreams, the stories, the love, US. I threw them away. I threw US away. I threw you, away. Your love changed me. Into something the world never even saw I am capable of becoming. But you’re death changed me more. Into someone I never even saw myself of becoming. I’m still standing here. Hoping and wishing. That I can at least undo the past, and make us last. Then suddenly the rain has started pouring like the first time I held your lips and told you we’re for forever as the drops hit my face I let out the tears I’ve been keeping since then. I wish you’re still here with me I wish I could still spend the rest of life with you. I wish I could still wake up seeing your face first minute of the morning I wish I could still hold your hands as we journey life together but all I can do now is wish wish that at least you can hear me. Promise, There’ll be no more nightmares like that again. No more goodbyes at the end of I love yous no more pain nor hurting thus, all there will be are moments of rapture and a promise of an everlasting love. I thought what I did is right but no, it only worsened the situation. I lost you while trying hard not to hurt you