"What is better—to be born good, or to overcome your evil nature through great effort?"
Cas thinks about that one often. Was he ever good, really? Is it in his nature to be on the wrong side of morality? He remembers he was nice once. He doesn't remember how true it was.
From one god playing with his soul, to another. Using him for their whims. He's a tool, a weapon. Nothing more. Revolution is futile, but he keeps fighting. Against them. Against the world. Against Fate.
He's not sure how much more of this he can take. What stops Akatosh from withholding his soul from him longer? Blades dull, become rusted, chip and shatter. Cas cannot age, but he can feel it all getting old, and fast.
Go on, young accursed one. Chosen one. Wouldn't it be nice to rest?
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Casimar is my Vestige from ESO, who's gone through all of the game's storyline (main, DLCs/expansions). The only issue—something got fucked up, and he never got his soul back from Molag Bal. He's spent the last 900+ years soulless, travelling from place to place, getting involved in anything he could.
Ironically, the worst thing that happened to him? Wasn't anything in ESO, not the ritual that lost him his soul in the first place, not anything before or after that. Morrowind. He was born in Vivec City to House Redoran. The destruction of Vivec was the longest, most ruthless nail in the coffin for him. As a former avid worshipper of the Tribunal, he lost the last home his soul knew and the only faith he had all to the whims of yet another Daedra—Azura.
Now? He'd found himself in Skyrim. He didn't fight the concept of execution at Helgen. He'd be fine, after all: he was immortal as long as someone else held his soul. He'd endured worse.
Then, the dragon appeared.
He met its menacing red gaze, and felt something stir for once. Hunger. More than the itch for skooma that he'd never quite shaken off since the Red Year. More than the increasingly dull thrill of the fight. More than the steady loss of fear for death.
Ambition.
Courage.
He didn't ask to be the Dragonborn. But Akatosh needed a Dragonborn. Look to Alessia—it wasn't the first time the Dragon-God had made dragon blood where he'd needed it. Why not recycle an old hero? The Vestige lacked a soul. The Vestige was an empty vessel craving fullness. Who better to fight and consume the rise of dragons? The perfect champion. And Akatosh had the perfect motivator.
Akatosh holds his soul. He promises to return it when Cas defeats Alduin. He'd be whole and complete again. Powerful. Venerated.
Casimar still wonders if it's worth it.
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