Well I’m back. Been awhile. Wanted to write something I’ve been thinking about and I’m free here. Free to say anything or nothing. Not really sure which it’ll be tonight but here goes.
I moved. I moved for a fresh start..between Aajays death, my drama with my dad and financially crumbling; I wanted a reset. I have one. I’m happy.
I met a friend. A good friend, the best really. Her name is Sierrah. She’s a pure hearted person; she’s sweet. She’s selfless and she’s just like Aajay. It scares me how alike they are. Terrifies me really. I think “wow another angel in my life; will I lose her too”. That’s awful to think I know but it’s so easy to lose a good person. Did Aajay know I needed her? Did she push her to me when I least expected it? That’s crazy right? It makes no logical sense. I’m 600 miles away from where Aajay is and yet she’s everywhere. I’m flawed and jaded and not pure. Yet somehow I was gifted not one but two perfectly good humans in my lifetime. Why? I don’t understand it. I am not worthy but I am grateful. I miss you Aajay so much it hurts. I hope you know this. I am sorry we ran out of time together…it feels weird to have another friend just like you but I’ll adore her as much as I adore you. 💕
