carnis fabrica

im not sure what to particularly tag this as (suggestions welcome) but i was watching the video essay linked above and in the middle of it i suddenly stopped because the mention of the manga “welcome back alice” (okaeri alice) caught my attention. while the other one mentioned previously (inside mari) sounds really interesting as well (and i will be reading it too) my brain decided that i need to read okaeri alice first

and so i did

and something about it is so.. deeply personal, but not in the sense that it is personal to me but, in general, the piece is just so personal. i think its because of the the author’s notes - about how this is based on his feelings about his own gender and sexuality (but not just saying it, showing it, explaining it). without them i feel like the read would be completely different

im looking forward to when the next issue will release. considering what the current last chapter is, i hope for it to be a happy ending

i have a lot of thoughts, like how yo is clearly a self insert but so is kei in many ways, but i will not be spoilering too much. maybe i will talk about it in a separate post, about how i interpreted the piece from my perspective of an 'autistic trans person.' but thats for a later time