Honestly so glad I transitioned because it made my experience with bisexuality so much more freeing, in a sense? Looking back I really did not like the trappings of a standard "straight relationship setup" that I had with women and because of that I looked for men as an escape and as a way to properly express the other half of my sexuality. It felt like there were a lot of standards and expectations I had to meet when I was dating cishet women as a (at the time) cis bi guy and I never saw those same trappings when I looked at male/male relationships. I didn't know the words for it at the time but I desperately craved specifically queer affection, with all its weirdness and lack of rules. Now that I've transitioned it feels 1. So much nicer to be with others in a body I actually love being in and 2. I realize I don't and never had to adhere to those trappings I was so afraid of!! I can just be Mason in a Relationship first and foremost and all the perceived "right" ways of dating women are out the door. Now none of that matters!! I like them all in equal fashion. It's very liberating to no longer carry those biases and external expectations.
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