non idol!martin! x keonhos older sister! reader!
synopsis: When keonhos older sister returns to Korea after studying abroad, she catches the eye of a certain someone—martin.
‼️WRITING PART, PLEASE DONT SKIP‼️
martin was already standing outside when you opened the front door.
the second you saw him, your chest tightened.
like he hadn't slept properly.
like he'd been carrying something too heavy for too long.
martin looked up at the sound of the door opening.
for a moment you guys just stood there.
making sure the other was really there.
the conversation died immediately.
martin looked away first.
you looked at the ground.
neither of you were used to being awkward around each other.
that realization hurt more than either of you expected.
“i didn't meet up with woojin because i wanted him back."
martin's head snapped up immediately.
“he texted me about Mina."
realization flashed across his face.
“he said she'd been asking about me."
a bitter laugh escaped you.
“he lied... he tricked me into going."
because suddenly every assumption he'd made started falling apart.
“he wasn't even supposed to be there."
“trust me. i know that now."
the tension between you two shifted.
martin rubbed the back of his neck.
“I should've talked to you."
“instead of listening to yejin."
the same martin who always believed the best in people.
and you’d forgotten how much he'd been hurting too.
“you thought I got back together with him?"
the question slipped out.
martin looked away immediately.
that alone was enough of an answer.
you felt your heart sink.
“i didn't want to believe it."
his voice was barely above a whisper.
the confession sounded pathetic to him.
but you just looked heartbroken.
martin laughed humorlessly.
“i kept telling myself there had to be an explanation."
his eyes stayed fixed on the pavement.
“but every time i looked at that picture..."
his voice cracked slightly.
the word hung between them.
you had never heard martin describe himself that way before.
“we weren't even officially together."
a bitter laugh escaped him.
“that's the embarrassing part."
“so technically you didn't owe me anything."
“but it still felt like..."
like his heart was breaking?
like he'd finally let himself be vulnerable with someone again and gotten hurt?
like he'd started imagining a future with you?
the words wouldn't come out.
“why didn't you tell me?" you whispered.
because the answer was embarrassing.
because it made him feel weak.
“what if i asked and you told me i was right?"
the moment something broke.
your eyes immediately burned.
martin finally looked at you.
his expression shattered when he saw the tears forming.
“i would've never chosen him."
the words hit harder than he expected.
a tear slipped down your cheek.
“i need you to understand that."
“i would've never done that to you."
martin looked like he'd been punched.
because suddenly all he could think about was yejin's picture.
over something that wasn't even true.
and that made everything worse.
his own voice was shaking now.
not because you both were angry.
not because you both hated each other.
but because you both almost lost each other.
over people who already knew exactly where to hurt you both.
then laughed because now he was crying in front of you.
which somehow made him cry harder.
tears still falling down both your guys’ cheeks.
just two people who had been hurting.
two people who missed each other.
two people who never wanted to hurt each other in the first place.
“i kept thinking about all the times i made myself believe you liked me as much as i liked you."
“and then i thought maybe i’d imagined all of it."
“it wasnt because i wanted her."
his voice became desperate.
“god, y/n, i didn't want her."
the tears streamed freely again.
“because the second it happened all i could think about was you."
“the whole time we weren't talking, the only person I wanted to text was you."
"the only person I wanted to see was you."
“the only person I wanted was you."
martin looked at you like you were the only thing keeping him together.
“you mean so much to me, y/n.”
“more than i know how to explain."
another tear slipped down his cheek.
“you've become my favorite part of every day."
“the first person i want to tell things to."
"the person i look for in every room."
“and the worst part of all this wasn't being angry."
"it was thinking i'd lost you."
then martin shook his head.
“i don't care about yejin."
“i don't care about woojin.”
"i don't care about any of that."
just like you never wanted woojin.
all because you cared too much.
this realization broke whatever walls left.
martin laughed through his tears.
“the biggest idiots on earth."
"i don’t even think like or love, is the right word that represent how strong I feel about you”
tears filled his eyes immediately.
because after everything—
you were still saying it.
trying and failing to hold himself together.
“don't say that unless you mean it."
because he'd spent the past days convincing himself he imagined everything.
you immediately grabbed his hand.
and finally let himself believe it.
his voice was barely audible.
"i love you so much it actually scares me."
neither of you looked okay.
both of you were smiling.
and neither of you could stop staring at one another.
like you guys couldn't believe you’d almost lost this.
until there was barely any space left.
“you know," you whispered, "for someone who planned an entire first date itinerary..."
“you are really bad at communication."
“you thought I wanted him back."
“you thought I wanted yejin."
both of you stared at each other.
the kind that only comes after surviving something awful.
and suddenly there were no more words left.
so you reached up and cupped his face.
martin's breath caught. ears turning red.
his eyes immediately softened.
like you were choosing him.
the other gently pulling you closer. deepening the kiss.
and for the first time in days—
exactly where you were supposed to be.
AUTHORS NOTE- DO I SMELL BF AND GF?!!!! YAYAAAAAA. sorry I've been lagging it on this post guys, Ive been so busy!!! so if this is buns and rushed I AM SO SORRY! i just wanted to feed y'all some martin x y/nnie. anyways thank y'all for continuing to support this SMAU! and its almost coming to an end :( but there will be many more to come! I love y'all❣️
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