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Dr. Carter! Hi! 😁

LUCY KNIGHT & JOHN CARTER

first: benton

the second carter walks into the room, the camera cuts to benton. he's probably the most important person in the room to him, the one he respects and loves likes the most, and he's almost completely removed from the confrontation. he's standing on the other side of the room, out of scrubs, head down. he barely even looks at carter, and i don’t think he says a single word until they’re alone. everyone else is participating in the intervention, but benton really doesn’t need to say anything, because his mere presence is enough for carter.

this very short silent exchange is so amazing, you can feel how betrayed carter feels:

then, as the intervention goes on, he gets up and starts looking more directly at carter and becomes harder to ignore. i don't know if "denial" is exactly the right word, but there's a shift. at the beginning he seems unwilling to engage with what everyone is there to say, and by the end he's forced to confront it along with everyone else. notice how he goes from trying to stay low and far away to fully getting higher, bigger, and eventually running after carter. obviously his words and his physical presence ended up making the most impact. there’s something so fucking devastating to me about seeing your mentee that you love and care for so much, who almost died in your arms, in a situation like this. the choice to keep him silent and distance until they’re outside is brilliant imo

kerry:

she spends the entire scene by the door. every time carter tries to leave, she's the person who stops him. what stands out to me is how little force is actually involved. and objectively, if carter had really wanted to leave, he could have. he is bigger than her, stronger than her, and kerry is physically the smallest person in that room. he probably would’ve knocked out anyone else guarding the door (just two mins later he punches benton). but she’s somebody that he likes and respects (and fears) enough to not make it physical. she opened her door to him one year ago and now she’s keeping another door closed to help him.

after carter storms out, kerry turns toward the door and away from the room. it's a tiny blink and you’ll miss it moment, but i've always noticed how she doesn't want anyone to see her face. maybe i'm reading too much into it, but just like in the stabbing, she once again seems much more affected than she's willing to show in front of everyone else. she spends the whole scene holding her ground, even raising her voice at carter, and the second he’s gone she turns away.

carter:

and then there's carter himself. the scene keeps literally backing him into dark corners, so whenever he moves, he's running into another obstacle. when you watch carefully, you’ll notice that in almost every shot in this scene you’ll see the edge of someone’s head or shoulder or arm, all meant to make it feel like he’s trapped.

later, when he turns on jing-mei, he immediately starts using his height and physical presence. he gets into her space and tries to intimidate her, and he’s so desperate that something she did six years ago is the only leverage he has against her. god knows how many mistakes he made while she was away

and again, after kerry asks him about his wrists, instead of moving her out of the way, he walks to the other side of the room through all his mentors, all the people who care about him, who’ve been there from him since day one, and storms out.

Carcy | Mondays - Ethel Cain