I keep getting emails from tumblr about people sending me messages, and I just logged in and saw that 90% of them are about my last post, which was me being in the hospital. Iāve pretty much quit tumblr, but I still belive I owe you guys an explanation. So, What happened is I ended up one day throwing up about 7 to 10 more times in 24 hours (I donāt exactly remember how many). My body was so weak and got real damaged, I still have to be careful with what I eat now. The following 2 weeks after that day I was a tired wreck, trying to balance between rehearsals and depression and school and just being generally healthy, I, without noticing lost any interest in tumblr. I found other things that made me happy. I go out with friends more now, and my grades are better for the most part and I volunteer and Iām on the schoolās musical and Iām happy. I mightāve done one or two stupid tumblr-related things while being off tumblr, but if I wouldnāt have done them, I wouldnāt have been really able to let go. Iām not 100% better now. Some days Iām worst, actually. But I have more friends now than I had last year at this time and when Iām sad, I can take a bus or walk to my friendās house instead of having to wait for them to log on to Skype so I can call them. Iāve still got a couple 'Internet friendsā Iām in touch with, but this is all Iāll have. So to my former friends, people I cut off and people Iāve hurt - Iām sorry. I loved you all and I will always care for you. I just figured itās time for me to get out of my comfort zone. And for the rest of my followers, I wish you all happiness and love. Merry Christmas to you all (and happy Hannukah to me :) ), I hope you all will have a lovely new year. -Julie.
