So there is this boy

Dear my love Shaun <3, You're my one and only!!! Love your baby girl:) P.S: I know you don't have one but maybe one day you'll look at mine and see all the things that I couldn't say. The little things I like And rad! I really hope you like it because while reblogin most of the pictures I was thinking of you :) like alwaysssssss! I'm so head over heals for you it scares me. I don't want to you out of my life! It might sound selfish I just call it.. Well love!

The pain I give him is from the pain of my past. I don't want to give you pain I want to give you joy! I want to be the reason for you being happy and smiles and I want to take your breath away. I'm sorry that I'm letting you love me because I don't fully love myself. I like it's a illness. Yeah I reblog things about loving myself but it's not that I don't love myself because I guess I do:) I just think anyone can love me because of my past of being a evil bitch to my ex boyfriend when they shouldn't been treated like that either! Karma kicked my ass after believe me. Since I stayed standing after hurt I find a guy who healed all my pain and now I just keep pushing him away since I feel like he shouldn't because of my past but I'm so dumb!!!! Because I never hurt him like I did my past! Ex's. I just think I need to get over myself and just his love over power me. But after today I might of fucked it all up. If so my followers I'm sorry but is most likely be posting the saddest things! And I just hope and pray that he will still stand by myself after seeing my crazy side :/