Sad Puppy Dog Hours

It doesn't matter how much love you have for your kid, how much you just wanted to protect them and give them the best life they could... if you abuse them, you abused them. If you hit your kid, screamed at your kid, sexualized your kid, and you take 0 accountability for it because you love them, you are no better than a parent that despises their child or doesnt care for their child and does the same thing. As they like to say, facts do not care about your feelings. Harm is still harm when it comes from a loving heart.

So now I'm an actual adult and other adults are literally not allowed to do anything to me, so how am I supposed to learn my lesson or accept guidance when the only relationship I've ever had was "You're perfect and can never do anything wrong, but if you break something or disrespect me, I'm going to blow it way out of proportion and humiliate you and then angst about it because you're not meeting my expectations of being the perfect person I expect you to be."

Now imagine on top of that; feeling shame, embarrassment and guilt for even having the emotions in the first place.

Day by day I'm learning a new affection style based on being present and intentional. Even if I forget sometimes. I can always get back on the wagon.

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