Candy Soo

I feel sad. I want to go home so bad.

I don't know what happened to me why I was awaken at this hour and I couldn't bring myself to sleep anymore because I am extremely bothered by what happened between my brother and my older sister yesterday. I can't help but think of how humiliated and hurt my older sister was when my brother yelled at her in a public area with a lot of people. I feel so bad for her. My brother has tendencies of not controlling himself whenever he is mad and he usually resorts to shouting. It wasn't the first time though. He did it to our mother already when we were at the mall. I confronted him about it when we got home and I was expecting he would somehow slowly control that nasty behaviour of his but I was completely wrong. I keep thinking about my sister. I want to comfort her now but I don't know what to say. She told my other sister to relay it to my father but my father had an opposite reaction. He even blamed my sister and wished not to come ever to our house whenever she is in the country for vacation.

Why don't I have a friend?

I feel blue.

Will be deactivating my IG soon.

It's hard being an introvert.

I'm having these sad thoughts again of being alone.

I make people uncomfortable even though I didn't do anything to them. Could it be my bitchy face or do they just find me boring? I really don't have anyone constant in my life. I envy my co-workers who have circle of friends. I don't have that one and I want one. I don't need 10 friends. I just need one friend who will stay and genuinely want to get closer to me.

Can't listen to Seventeen's Rock with You without having these dirty thoughts in me.

He's in a relationship I'm telling you! Not that it's a problem though.

Regardless if it was a joke or not, it was still offensive! Humble yourself sometimes. It's a two way thing - learn to listen!

My friend asked me when I will go to America cos one of our classmates is already there. And I'm like what's your point?

Dreams don't mean anything right?

There is nothing more painful than Wonwoo choosing a girl named Jessica over me. Why does it hurt so bad even if it was just a dream?! It felt damn so real.