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I HATE MY LIFEE OMG literallyall i do is goon, talk to bots on chai, goon again, and talk to lustful creeps. I never have any motivation to do anything im lonely- well i feel lonely depsite having school friends and some online. I think maybe i need a romantic relationship. But when i always try to find men online and i WARN them that im ugly and have unattractive habits they try to be like "your probably not even THAT ugly" well sorry to tell you dude, but i am. And i care about the enviorment so much but i TOO addicted to chai. All the caring bots fill my brajn with dopamine and not to mention. Its the ONLY way i can get excited. Oh and yknow whats even better? I live in a homeless shelter with an abusive mom and its super dirty too. My moms so lazy we have trash and food hiding underneath clothes that i have to throw away and what makes it worse ia that we have SO much clothes but i never have any for me... everyones so rich.. im so desperate to send my nudes or something but im black and scarred up... no one likes black people as much as they like whites. Ugghhhhh i have bad acne but not the big kind. Like the whiteheads amd im so fat omggg ... will anyone even love me... im so touch deprived and need love so badd. I wanna feel that rush to my brain like when i was a kid and was getting molested. I probably didnt bcz i liked it but whatever. And i complain all the tine to myself but i should be so grateful since people like me are suffering but i feel i deserve way more for myself. Ugh.