Wut.

So I went back to that chute I found... :I

(July 16 on the right, July 30 on the left)

Water levels are a pain, I should have expected it given that the river has a water level control damn at the top of it. I did find this neat tool though to track the levels in the future. 25cm less water can make a big difference in a set.

(It’s not actually the water levels that affect it but rather the rate of change of the water levels. The faster the drop on the graph the more fun during that drop.)

Caught a vole that had been living in the filing cabinet at work. ’s cute and fluffy but could not stay :( let it go in some bushes a ways off.

Up at the cottage for the weekend so I went on a little scouting expedition.

Beautiful day with not many bugs.

Found this awesome little chute. Wasn’t prepared to run it, but I definitely want to! OwO

Come back with full gear and some friends to spot when I get the chance. (Safety third :P )

Drew for practice and stuff.

It better rain, otherwise I look like a giant past due creamsicle for nothing. :P 

Drew my dragon guy, thing. Getting better. Neck is a bit long and how the hell do you draw hands?

(Not quite never, just wanted to make a song reference)

A while ago I gave a lot of thought to the way a person will act differently depending on who they’re around. For example, you wouldn’t act the same way around a potential employer as you would around your friends (excluding cases where these are the same person -_- ). Now, while this can show the extent of the change, it doesn’t really give a feel the the real nature of it. Of course you behave differently around employers, but that can be a conscious choice, “acting professional”, the interesting part of it is when you do it automatically. What could give a better sense of this is the way you act around your friends vs the way you act around your family. A friend of mine had never noticed until I pointed it out but he actually used a totally different voice to talk to his family.

So the change can be significant and subconscious. You can behave like a totally different person and still be genuinely you. Like having different versions of oneself.

More recently I’ve had this off-shoot of that idea:

What if you’re not happy with some of those versions though? Not all of them, that’s a different problem. You have settings, people you’re around, where you are a version of yourself you are happy with, proud of, but it doesn’t seem to carry. When it’s a subconscious change in behavior, how do you stay the version of you you’re happy with? It’s frustrating and confusing and common and a pain in the ass when you’re trying to get to know new people.