CamileTAli

The Darkest Days of my life is facing my fears, my demons, my thoughts, my emotions and the things that have put me through hell and back.

One of my darkest days was losing the people that mean the most to my heart & life. My grandma, my cousin Jade, Moi, My Aunty Sadie, My great grandmother who we call Mom, both my pop-pops, My auntie Kristian and so on. I wish I could bring them back and let them have more time with me. But I can’t because they are home where the mighty god is protecting them & they are watching over me.

Other darkest time in my life is going through a very rough bad breakup. He was the love of my life. He was the most special, supportive, loving, caring, funniest man in my life. Now it’s an empty shell in my heart that I can’t bare to let him go and let me move on and it hurts every day.

The most painful darkest moment of my life was learning how to express myself to other people and my family. I’m the person who doesn’t like to share her feelings or emotions with her family. That’s what the most hardest time in my life ever.

I’m learning to fight my demons everyday. I’m learning to understand grief better because I don’t want to hold onto the pain and suffering that i can feel right now. I don’t want to the pain to become the best part of me. I don’t my feelings to get in the way of how much I love my family and how much they love me.

My demons, my pain, my fears, my demons won’t get the best person out of me. There are hardest days and the worst days where my demons & everything will get the best of me. But I have to keep pushing forward and focus on my life..

Here’s a quote: “Strength grows in the moment when you think you can’t go on but you keep going anyway”