auroras and sad prose

we don't need the left's answer to joe rogan we don't need the democratic d*nald t*ump we don't need fetterman 2.0!!! stop pushing these hasan piker graham platner stupid evil grifter men!!! stop selling out the democratic party's core constituencies (women, black people, and jewish americans) because a certain loud minority faction of white male commentators and their white male followers feel emasculated by the fact of those constituencies!!! oh my fucking god!!!

The Pitt looks like a really good show I just can’t watch it because it really seems like everybody who watches it is experiencing some kind of psychosis and my grip on reality is loose enough as it is

I’m also just more of a House and Nurse Jackie gal

The Pitt looks like a really good show I just can’t watch it because it really seems like everybody who watches it is experiencing some kind of psychosis and my grip on reality is loose enough as it is

Dany antis are a good example of how people can become so absorbed by their hatred of a character that it ends up eroding their comprehension skills and their ability to engage with a story in general. It gets to a point where it's not about discussing the story itself anymore but about proving they're right for hating that character and that all the people who love said character are wrong and delusional. They no longer care what's in the canon or even what the author has to say. They'll gladly ignore things, intentionally misinterpret things or simply lie because in their minds everything they say is correct and anyone who disagrees is just a crazy stan

It’s just so blatantly obvious that none of you genuinely care about people with eating disorders you’re just seeing a woman smaller than you existing and seething with rage over it and dressing that up with fake concern and social justice language and YOU are actually triggering me a lot more than any picture of Ariana Grande ever could. You realize the ED voice in my head is literally telling me “look how jealous and bitter they all are…let’s make them more mad 😈😈😈 let’s really give them something to be outraged about 😈😈😈 nobody’s tried to cancel you for being too skinny in a while 😈😈😈 let’s relapse to really grind their gears 😈😈😈 wouldnt it be fun to be so small it literally outrages people 😈😈😈” and I’ve been literally trying to white knuckle it but you guys are pushing me over the fucking edge. But like I know you dont care because at the end of the day you don’t give a fuck about any actual ED sufferers because it isn’t an illness to you people, you treat them like an abuse tactic that the people who suffer from them employ to hurt you personally and make you the victim somehow. Because this isn’t about raising awareness for EDs or understanding the root of the issue…it’s about seething that you saw a skinny girl and wanting to punish her for being smaller than you but being too haughty to admit that you are experiencing something so base. It is so fucking hard to be in ED recovery while also having ARFID and a connective tissue disease that keeps me permanently underweight (mind you I AM being regularly seen by a doctor, my weight has not gone up or down at all in like the last six years except when I had a biblical case of food poisoning which was genuinely one of the most horrifying things I have experienced to date) and to see all this rhetoric that essentially boils down to “it is a moral failing to exist in a body that looks like mine” is scary because I will be chronically ill for the rest of my goddamn life and I will likely never have a body that looks “normal” or “healthy” and navigating that reality ALONGSIDE eating disorder recovery has been a mindfuck and something I would not wish on my worst enemy. I want to be an actress. I am a creative. I love fashion. I want to see the world. I don’t think it’s reasonable or fair that I should be expected to hide in solitude when loneliness/isolation is one of my biggest triggers that has pushed me to the brink with my ED in the first place. But like saying all of this is pointless because none of you care. You just think “wow that evil bitch and her small arms, why is she doing this to ME. how DARE she. she is such a bad person for LOOKING like this. But also EDs don’t have body types uwu people of all sizes can be anorexic but also the only people I accuse of secretly being anorexic are thin. But also health at every size and nobody owes you health and being unhealthy is valid uwu except if you’re smaller than me in which case you are evil and you only look like that because you want to hurt me and you do owe me health actually.” It’s fucking exhausting and it never goes anywhere productive and it never makes anybody feel better and it never makes anyone who is sick get better and it doesn’t even make any of you feel better about yourselves it’s just nothing but useless anger for anger’s sake and all it does is make sick people feel worse. And when these sick people feel worse all they do is make themselves sicker. Which just seems to make all of you more angry. And then you say things that make me want to make myself sicker. And then I’m up at 2am trying to not do that. Because I am trying to get better even if I don’t look it. And I might never look it according to your standards but I will continue to be a person who exists and you may have to look at me from time to time and just accept that.

And furthermore…do y’all sincerely not think “oh well we’re just pointing out that being too thin isn’t healthy and shouldn’t be normalized!!!!” Isn’t going to circle back around and hit fat people harder and lead to more discrimination against them???? If we are allowing a mentality of “looking ‘unhealthy’ (‘health’ here being an entirely nebulous concept) is valid grounds to harass, mock, shame another person or interfere with another person’s autonomy” it’s going to hit fat people harder. I know so many of you concern trolling about Ariana Grande’s “health” aren’t fucking “healthy” yourselves by society’s standards, you’re just fucking mad that she’s smaller than you. I don’t see any of you concern trolling about Tess Holliday (who has openly talked about having restrictive eating disorders despite always being overweight, her body was also a sick one!) the same way (nor should you!!!! NOR SHOULD YOU!!!!) or ever mentioning BED or overweight sufferers of EDs (who do exist and are watching you turn every skinny chick you see into the ED mascot of the week!!!) in your supposed crusade against eating disorders. It’s just SO OBVIOUS what this truly is and you cannot convince me there is any logic and good faith. You’re just mad at the fucking skinny chick for being skinny. And like, your feelings are valid or whatever, but just own your shit and stop trying to make it a moral thing or pretend you’re doing some noble “pro health” agenda when the fact is, there’s always going to be people existing in the world who “look unhealthy” to you, whether they have a “valid” excuse to exist in that state or not, and you’re just going to have to cope.