Hundred Thirty Four.
Shaking Kylian bottle as I made my way back into the living room, it has taken a while for this baby of mine to get used to the time difference. I think he has suffered a lot really with it, but he is settled now, this has to be the easiest child for me “Damson pisses me off” Tianna came out of nowhere “random but why?” I am confused “because I fucking told him I want Nova here; we have been in London for so long. He said yes when my family go home, I want my daughter I don’t care about his damn family” letting out an oh “but why didn’t you bring her? This is what? Going on two week now, he needs to give it up and bring her now at this point, I get why you are mad but relax. He is just too excited to be a dad” Ti smiled “you right, I just miss her. I want her home that is all” she groaned out walking off, looking at Aziel, this boy hates being a big brother. Everything Kylian does he gets mad at but he does it, I think he adores him but hates him at the same time “Kylian stop it” he moved his gaming controller away from him “it’s not yours, you can’t snatch” my son has the purest British accent, like Oakley isn’t even pure British accent, it’s more gang but this boy has proper English book shit, I am like thinking he is going to be a posh boy “mom, he keep hitting it when I try and play” I laughed “yes and I am here now, I needed to make his milk that is all. Thank you for letting him sit with you” Aziel just stared at me “also it’s early, why are you playing that? You know I don’t like you playing game all day, this last one and turn it off” he huffed out moving his arm from around Kylian, in a weird way he will protect him but also can’t deal with him, and his brother finds him funny. As soon as Aziel shuffled away from him, he keeled over to the side and his head rested on Aziel arm “move him mom, please” I laughed “come here, I think your brother has had enough of you” picking him up “thank you” he huffed out “what happened to being the best big brother nephew!” Tianna sat next to Aziel “sometimes, but he is annoying” rolling my eyes “but Kylian loves you” sitting down on the couch across them.
Rubbing Kylian back, he is half asleep and now he can go down for a nap “I was saying to Damson, I think we need to have another. I don’t want the kids to have a big gap. Maybe when Nova is three I will” raising an eyebrow “don’t you want to enjoy Nova? A bit of peace” I am confused on why she would want that “I think it’s more so to get it out of the way too” I guess she is right “so another one?” I asked “just one more, that is it. I am content with a girl; you’re surrounded by boys, and I feel for you and also my god. Least I won’t get the reaction Aziel gave you” I snorted laughing “he was mad with me for a few days wasn’t he. When he came in with flowers and then he told me he didn’t want it. Yeah maybe keep it till she is three. Tell Damson to hurry up and bring her” I miss Nova, she is the sweetest “I know right but I think you should try for a girl” I laughed “I think so too, I said it to Oakley. Like I want a girl. I don’t know what is in his gene pool, but they have the best fucking hair, like my both sons have bundles, he has perfect hair. That gene hits anyways, but yeah I mean why not. I think one more and if it’s a girl then I will stop. I do want one more, that is it” Ti sighed out “Imagine you have just all boys, and that is it?” I cringed “then it is what it is, but Oakley has his mini me and I have mine” I laughed “you know what Kylian has that perfect baby look though, like you know they love those types of babies for advertisements” I chuckled “yeah, I was reluctant in having him on the billboards for Mamas and Papas in the UK. It’s cute” Tianna cackled “I can’t wait for them to go up, mom and dad would have seen him then” nodding my head “exactly, but it’s exciting. You want me to make you breakfast or?” I asked Oakley as he breezed by “I will have cereal” Aziel jumped off the couch to run after his dad “yeah I need a daughter” I laughed, boys are just all their dad, it’s rather lonely.
We are seeing my parents today, well my family which I am nervous about but to know Momo lives with them, she will have some things to say but she is very old now so I will have to accept it. She is fragile so Tianna said but I will have to just accept it. She cannot say anything about my kids when Rajad has some white ass kids his damn self, my uncle kids look fully white without an ounce of melanin, I don’t want to hear it but if she does I will keep quiet and take it “nervous?” Oakley asked me, I was going to ask him “erm, I am excited. A little nervous, what about you?” I mean he is coming with me “I am calm, I said it to Aziel, and he goes ok, that was it, but I am calm about it. I am there for you, I am not there for anything” he is doing it for me “I know you are Oakley, but we can only see how it goes really, I don’t think they will start anything. Maybe Momo but I think other than that no, but I wanted to ask. Has Juke done what I asked of him?” Oakley is confused “and what was that again?” rubbing his chin “oh the bedroom, oh yeah. He said he would do it, yeah I will ask him. He goes oh I can set that up for you while you both go, I don’t know if he can do anything, but I will, I guess Sky got him straight though. She will push him on it, crazy what a woman can do” I smiled “well yeah, I mean a man in love. They have to be in love” I pointed “yeah that, I am shocked they not blaming me for this” I have to laugh because they are “I corrected them” walking off “oh good, Aziel said to me earlier that dad, I am very proud of you. And I said huh, that is random, and he said I am dad, so random too. You think Aziel reaction will be positive with seeing them? He was very upset about not seeing them at the start” I shrugged “we will see” I am sure Aziel will be ok.
Looking behind me to check Tianna is coming out, Oakley is putting the car seat in, he can deal with that. He has been so quiet “you good?” Placing my hand on his shoulder “uhm yeah why” he moved back from the car seat “just asking, you seemed a little quiet really. Is it because we are going there?” He laughed “nah, nah. Not really, just you know me. My social battery dies after a while, but I’m good. It’s nothing big, I said to you that should I go or if you want me there” he closed the car door “who wants who there?” Ti said, “I just asked like if Lee wanted me to go, just she saying I am quiet, but I am tired; like just doing shit here. Like she knows I been out working” I know he does get like that “oh you come, at the end of the day you’re her husband now. It’s needed for you to be there. Just get on with it, I think maybe my sister is apprehensive with how this will all go, but I am there. Without my child, I am so sick that I don’t have her but we are all good now come on” my sister being positive “we are good, I just think Lee is worrying” his ass is blaming me of course, rolling my eyes “sure Oakley” walking around the car, I just don’t know how this will all pan out, in my heart I think it will be ok but I can’t be sure with things, I just don’t want to have an argument at all.
Being back at my parents home is a little scary to see, I don’t know really a lot has happened in this home, but I come here different now, I come here as someone wife so it’s different but the memories I have here is something. I am shocked they haven’t moved again ever; they have remained here since. The amount of times I have stormed out of the home because I didn’t like what my mother said or didn’t like what happened but it’s all well “let’s do it then” Oakley said, getting out of the car. We can all be positive, I am going there being positive, they can see the kids and I guess speak on things. Opening the door “I don’t want to be here” Aziel said, “why not?” I questioned “I want to go home” he mumbled “but we are here to see nana and papa, you know this. I told you that. Why don’t you want to be here? They are excited to see you” he shook his head “I want to go and see Beau and Jordan, I don’t want to see them” I huffed “well we are here, didn’t we speak on this? I told you that adult things happen and that this was never anything to do with you, this wasn’t your fault. It was me; it was my fault and I said one day we will heal. One day you may understand but right now you don’t. My mom and dad don’t hate you; they don’t even hate me. Life happened ok, it’s not your fault now get out of the car, come. They want to see you” he doesn’t want to really actually go in, he thinks that they didn’t want to see him. He Dragged himself out of the car “thank you” closing the door making my way around the car, Tianna smiled at me “weird being back right” I cringed “yes I am getting flashbacks when dad trashed your room” that was eventful to say the least that time, taking the car seat from Oakley “dad I want to go home” let him deal with Aziel, my mom came out of the house “you came” she said, nodding my head “wow, Rylee is here” Junior said “and you both have braces on, my god. Look at you both” Junior came over to me, he hugged me straight away “you left us!” he spat “I know” I mumbled “oh my god, Aziel” my mom said getting emotional “look at him, hello” she made her way over to him “give him a moment mom, he is a little sad about it” I said before she went to him.
Sitting down on the couch, Momo is very old. Like she is out of the door old, I am shocked she is even here in this house “who’s that child?” she is the same, her mouth that is. Aziel ran out of the room “what you doing?” Oakley asked but he pushed and pushed Oakley to leave out “Aziel” I shouted at him “I will take him outside for a moment” Oakley said, nodding my head “the trouble of the family is here Robbie” Momo said to my mom “she is here mom, I told you. Look at her” my mom pointed “yes trouble” I laughed “how? You just don’t like people being happy” rolling my eyes “can I see him?” Raihan pointed “yeah sure, he is asleep though” lifting the blanket up “he looks like Oakley” my brother said “white” I laughed “yes, he looks like Reishi too!” smiling at him “wake him up” shaking my head “I prefer he was asleep thanks” my mom came over “Raihan is right, he looks like Reishi. And he has his dad in him, his hair is so straight” my mom sat next to me “I am getting choked up here, my youngest grandchild. Why Rylee?” my mother asked me “mom you know why, I can’t explain what you already know, when would it ever stop where you don’t play games. I needed to break it off, you know this already. I wouldn’t have cut you off for nothing. If I did something so bad you think Ti would be around? She would say I am wrong” my mom looked away from me and got up, placing the blanket over the seat as my dad walked in “you came” he said “I did” this is about to be messy or just the best thing that happened to us.
