Lover Boy

No, I’m not learning how to shoot a gun. I’m perfectly fine sticking with defense classes to learn to protect myself.

But I already bought it.. 

You what?

I got you a gun. So you can learn to shoot it and can feel more protected.

Never heard of a safe that does that before, it does sound kind of cool though.

Exactly. I got you a gun too by the way...

So a gun is the way to go? What if they end up getting in and get to the gun before you do?

Well that's why you put it in a safe, honey. I bought one that you like put your hand in to mold the lock and it pops open. It's wicked cool.

Why are you gun shopping?

Because I'm making the house safer.. I mean we already have a security system, but that doesn't stop everyone, Sarah. 

I mean I can try but what if thinking of something happy doesn’t help? Nothing was really able to stop me from staying angry the last few times..

Then call me. If you're ever sad or mad just find me or call me. 

Well yeah I’m physically fine, no STDs or anything. But he did say my depression could be affected if I have a mood swing.. 

Well.. if you're feeling upset.. think of a happy memory? 

He said that I’ve been…well my mind has been trying to block out the memory of the rape and while doing that..he diagnosed it as rape trauma syndrome..He told me it’s normal for rape survivors to get it after it happened and it should go away after a few months.. The symptoms explain everything, though, how I’ve acted and why I keep getting so mad over little things and having different mood swings..

But you're okay...? Like physically? No STDs or... anything?

I decided I wanted to know why I was acting like I was…I went to the doctor’s today..

What did he say? 

It’s actually not as bad as I probably just made it out to be..

Sarah..

Well that was surprising