XVIII -- XI -- MCMXCVII

I found the memories of us running through my head

Lacking their usual bitterness

I remember I used to dread

When not a day went by without you

I constantly ran through memories and blurs

Of you

And I regret it,

What I did to myself

In requiem for “us”

For the bond made from lack of trust

Not that there wasn’t good times.

Most of it was good times.

Yet it lacked the love I thought it held

You flickered a flame in me

And used it to burn down anything I liked about myself

You flickered a flame in me

To bring me to my knees

As what I kept close to me fell

Sometimes I find myself

Typing your username

Deleting

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Typing again.

I find myself missing the memory of who you used to be

Before we destroyed eachother

Before your lack of love destroyed me

I find myself

Slowly forgiving

Forgiving you

Forgiving myself

I find myself letting go

Of the memory of who I used to know

I feel you slipping from my thoughts

My pain

My ghosts, my regret-

I feel myself forgetting you

And what they did to me

Because of what you claimed

And for the first time in a long time I’m at peace with your haunting

The lingering does not sting anymore

I’ve grown

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