If I'm Lyin' I'm Dyin'

It has been 14 years since you’ve passed and you were on my mind throughout the day. I tore up my desk all morning looking for this little memorial card and couldn’t find it anywhere. Fast forward to about 45 minutes ago when I hopped in the car to head to work: I had an overwhelming urge to listen to Bleed American, which normally I would just play through my iPod, but for some reason I grabbed the CD knowing I had kept it in the glove compartment. I opened it up to find your face staring back at me. I don’t believe in god. I don’t put any stock into an afterlife. The pragmatist in me knows this was somehow guided by my subconscious, but maybe just this once I would like to believe that even though we grew apart the few years prior to your death that you’re reaching out to me now letting me know you’re with me regardless. I miss you, old friend. https://www.instagram.com/p/Bthl_muglB_PpALvm7NP2DHTOsUlZ5HpxJkKg40/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=dwotiqnawwgv

Me circa 2008 and me circa 2018 https://www.instagram.com/p/BsmsA4aAzzS5a11x2_wHP2e_tT5ORPHMSPFlYQ0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=cm3boxqjrcgk

When closed captioning malfunctions https://www.instagram.com/p/BsSJjTXAEYM/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=142c8m3ll03bz

#luceroinnonluceroplaces #lucero https://www.instagram.com/p/BqSJp3SgayH/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1tckdmblwtydo

This is the greatest picture in the history of pictures #Repost @brianbakers ・・・ Senior Threat https://www.instagram.com/p/BqQ8WO1g0LK/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=h6sj16uyw05e

Caught mid-poop https://www.instagram.com/p/BqPU6NFADmP/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=yd399m8ybdr6

My favorite https://www.instagram.com/p/BqMuQaegf7q/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=q4q388prkxs8

Uhhh hi? How may I help you, Neighborhood Cat? https://www.instagram.com/p/BqK7QN9A8mC/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ao8ljlgwqeqf

Jazzed to finally receive the @sunstroke_rs record from @newmoralityzine and @cointossrecords! Wonderful little treat waiting for me this morning. (at Washingtonville, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpJ6dq2HexB/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=14haq79uvklle

Received my Kickstarter package from @robotswithcoffee today! Too much excellentitude for the amount of money I pledged. I am excited that Robby has a fun (and funny) coloring book (and stickers and original art) for when he gets a little older. Paul really went above and beyond with the rewards, and I highly suggest you follow him and pick up some of his product. (Not pictured: Mr. Met sticker on the packaging 👍🏻😀⚾️) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpIq3qKHFhj/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=j9rmw6b2ang8

Only spent a few bucks at the record fair in Beacon, but that was money well spent. #sevendaysofsamsara #cobrakai #deadrobotallstars https://www.instagram.com/p/Bo6V7QDn7dq/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1qhy9pwui3ops

Support local business. Especially if it’s a deliciously vegan local business. @thankgoodnessitsvegan #thankgoodnessitsvegan #vegan #whatveganseat https://www.instagram.com/p/Bo4vsbFnbhM/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1omkxeyooojxm

Thank you @chrissysandwiches for hooking me up with these con exclusive hardcovers from NYCC!! #seventoeternity #tokyoghost #imagecomics (at Washingtonville, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BouqsiTnM4R/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1hjyyc27i2k8c

@onekingdown absolutely murdered it tonight. Between this set and TIHC they undoubtedly out on the two best sets of the year. I missed this band so much...these past few months have been everything. #onekingdown (at Upstate Concert Hall) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bonty9inwVU/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1vcsxvz9wl3vx

#alloutwar (at Upstate Concert Hall) https://www.instagram.com/p/BontEARHUAS/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1653ys6hl5s2u

#wisdominchains killed it tonight (at Upstate Concert Hall) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bons6umHVy4/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1wlt83yr6n8ck