philosophy and whatnot

09/23/2020

29.10.20 | Days of Productivity [29/100]

My days look so similar right now. During the week I go the gym, go to work and then I come home, have lunch and work on my thesis. Even my meals are the same.

23rd October 2020

Editing is a very slow process and even copious amounts of tea can’t help me. I’m hoping to finish the initial suggested edits of my first chapter today but who knows what will happen. 

10 . 22 . 20 //

22:53pm ; 21 oct 2020 

I don’t wanna take the world for granted, While I’m still trying to understand it // 20 October 2020

i'm freaking out. the more i study neurology, the more i find myself actually interested in medicine. thing is, i was premed for a hot sec before i changed my mind in my sophomore year. i don't think i fully considered how much work it'd be, and finally confronting those challenges terrified me.

now, i've already graduated and have a job, with the goal of applying to phd programs next year. but... because i do medical research and work closely with patients, nurses, and doctors, i'm finding myself spending hours just reading about, say, vascular territories, and actually enjoying it. in a way i never did when i was premed. which freaks me out. medicine? i thought i already failed once.

i won't make any sweeping statements about my future, but i'm not as frightened of failure as i once was. i am reminding myself that it's okay to start over and change my mind. there is always time. i'm actually feeling excited for the future again. ♡

21st October 2020

Today’s weather is gloomy and perfect but I can’t enjoy it because I’m stuck inside editing my thesis. At least I have lots of tea. 

🎃28.10.20🎃