desire's a terrible thing, but i rely on mine

race tomorrow and it doesn’t feel right. jsut feel sick. didn’t carb load properly. i’m tired

also in other news - i am so hungry.

i sliced my finger open with a butter knife 😔

tired tired but one national record broken. one more very, very close. that’s achievable at the end of this year i think.

doing this horrible thing to myself known as fitting in a full semester load of work into two days of class a week. i think the first month will hurt. then when my internship finishes i will be free

devious thought that i could totally write an ethnography on the place im working at…ohhh…university…how dare you equip me with these skills!!

21st century and some men still not even having first wave feminist takes. they hella limited…guys….we have 3 iterations of feminism now. keep up!!

on some “devious gas” ie my belly hurt, 30s long farts ONLY upon standing, no shitting, and my belly hurt.

my head hurtssss and i’ve cried four out of five days this week. we’re fighting, i guess, and it stresses me out. i’ve barely slept; and even when i do, it’s sticky, heavy; anxious. suffering is strength. suffering is what i deserve.

i petted a TWO cats for the first time!! they were so lovely, calm and soft…the sweetest ever