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Oh, where did I go wrong?

Limbs in a noose

Thought I'd be better

But I'm written off to tell you the truth

Dead in the water

Carry me home

Get off on whiplash

I'm losin' myself red and I'm blue

I set fires so deliberately

'Till I taste the smoke

On every part of me

My hands are promised to my dirty jeans

But I would sell myself to almost anything

I don't need your help

You should probably save yourself

There's blood on my hands

(You should probably save yourself)

I think I like the way you hate me sometimes

Hate me sometimes (take it back)

You come and go just like the bones I'm breaking

Bones I'm breaking (take it back)

I think I like the way you hate me sometimes

Give me a moment

And cut me loose

Buried in my bed

('Cause all of this is dim)

I set fires so deliberately

'Till I taste the smoke

On every part of me

And I can't swallow what you threw at me

And no I don't need your help

(You should probably save yourself)

I think I like the way you hate me sometimes

Hate me sometimes (take it back)

You come and go just like the bones I'm breaking

Bones I'm breaking (take it back)

I don't need your help

You should probably save yourself

'Cause there's blood on my hands

It's hangin' over my head

(Take it back, take it back)

I think we're shakin' the room, there's nothing left to hold onto

(Take it back, take it back)

Maybe we're stuck in the dark, it doesn't matter I'm see-through

(Take it back, take it back)

I think I like the way you hate me sometimes

Hate me sometimes (take it back)

You come and go just like the bones I'm breaking

Bones I'm breaking (take it back)

I don't need your help

You should probably save yourself

'Cause there's blood on my hands

It's hangin' over my head

I think I love the way you hate me sometimes

Hate me sometimes (don't take it back)

You come and go just like the bones I'm breaking

Bones I'm breaking (can't take it back)

I don't need your help

You should probably save yourself

I don't need your help

You should probably save yourself

#standatlantic #hatemesometimes #hateme #sometimes #donttakeitback #music #music video #new music #music quotes #feelings

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Nothing is as unmotivating as fixing your photos on your dating profile and getting unmatched by a girl you've been talking to.

Seriously is there a reason I bother with this shit at all? Nothing ever changes, everyone always leaves, might as well just give up

I need to stop trying to make friends

Every time I do I end up fucking it up

raphmike

I HAVE WAITED ALL YEAR TO POST THIS

In case y’all wanted an update

I’m still terrible at dating to the point where I’m waiting for people to get sick of me. Why? Cuz it’s not been any different ever. At this point I’ve stopped getting excited because the minute I get excited is the same minute people get bored of me.

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I love making you believe What you get is what you see But I'm so fake happy I feel so fake happy And I bet everybody here Is just as insincere We're all so fake happy And I know fake happy So I've been doing a good job of makin' 'em think I'm quite alright, better hope I don't blink You see it's easy when I'm stomping on a beat But no one sees me when I crawl back underneath If I smile with my teeth Bet you believe me If I smile with my teeth I think I believe me Oh please don't ask me how I've been Don't make me play pretend Oh no, oh what's the use Oh please, I bet everybody here is fake happy too And if I go out tonight, dress up my fears You think I look alright with these mascara tears? See I'm gonna draw up my lipstick wider than my mouth And if the lights are low they'll never see me frown If I smile with my teeth Bet you believe me If I smile with my teeth I think I believe me Oh please don't ask me how I've been Don't make me play pretend Oh no, oh oh what's the use? Oh please, I bet everybody here is fake happy too I know I said that I was doing good and that I'm happy now I should've known when things were going good that's when I'd get knocked down Oh please, just don't ask me how I've been Don't make me play pretend Oh no, oh no, oh what's the use? Oh please, I bet everybody here is fake happy too Oh please Oh please Oh please, I bet everybody here is fake happy too

#Paramore #Fake Happy #After Laughter #stuck in my head #thoughts #music

Now I see why I’m so repulsive

I can never take a risk on anything for fear of some kind of consequences. People always say to be more spontaneous and not to worry about what others think about me or my decisions but then as soon as I go against their wishes that whole thing changes. Why even pretend to take risks when all I get are disappointing responses and annoyance or disapproval?

It really makes me think what the fuck I’m even doing here. Pushing paper and sitting on my ass while everyone else does whatever they want and are actually happy. Contrary to what people keep telling me everything is temporary and the temporary lows last a lot longer than the highs. It’s why I can’t hold down a relationship because I don’t believe it’s gonna last and it’s why I never believe anything will be consistently good. I’m wasting my time, and even the small things that make me happy will be shot down. Why bother at all then?

(Fuck these fuckboy bands that can't think for themselves

Let's put away our black clothes and start cutting up our voices

That's what's cool now, right?)

If I wasn't thin and white with blue hair would I be here?

Maybe if I kill myself you'll know I'm sincere

I'll shave my blue hair, burn the rest of two dares

Drop from 'parks like "fuck it, who cares?"

But I'll tell you:

(I resent the party scene with a part of me that's hard to see

It's turned my starry friends to uninspired's lacking symmetry)

Hey, look what you've done now

I'm fucked and hope you're proud

While you follow around

Around, round, round, round

Hey, look what you've done now

I'm fucked and hope you're proud

While you follow around

Around, round, round, round

(So excuse my tantrum, can't you see I've got my hands full?)

I'm getting texts from idols I've looked up to since 15

But now people use my friends to try to get to me, fuck you

But we don't know you, you don't know we

We're freaked out and fragile, it's become more than a hassle

But I'll tell you:

(I resent the party scene with a part of me that's hard to see

It's turned my starry friends to uninspired's lacking symmetry

I resent the party scene with a part of me that's hard to see

It's turned my starry friends to uninspired's lacking symmetry)

Hey, look what you've done now

I'm fucked and hope you're proud

While you follow around

Around, round, round, round

Hey, look what you've done now

I'm fucked and hope you're proud

While you follow around

Around, round, round, round

Loud gets lonely

(I've just got a couple more things to say really quick)

To a certain married mister that tried to move on my missus (Cam)

Try to come around again you'll catch some swings and no misses

And to the rest I'll keep them nameless

(Nah, fuck it, here we go)

It's Richard and Clayton and John, shit, Will, yeah y'all made it

And if I see you in person I’m taking teeth, trust you earned this

(Thank you for coming by, today was a really good day)

#waterparks #TANTRUM #Entertainment #lyrics #music #inspiration #thoughts #feelings #punk #pop punk

“Please don’t keep your hopes up”

Don’t worry, I never do

😞

Why did I agree to try dating again, only to be thrown into another abyss of me being a failure as a person?

How I wish I could get something real that lasts. It’s just not gonna happen, I need to accept that. I’ve been single for over a year and I don’t see that changing. If anything I’ll just scare someone else away.

Might as well focus on music and stop trying, clearly I’m not a datable person or good bf material.

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2017 was a Year

That’s pretty much it. I bought a new place where I live alone, I hate my job and don’t know if I’m going to find a better one, most people have become too scarce to actually enjoy their company, and for the most part it’s just been boredom and despair. So yeah, great 2017, betting 2018 will be the same. “Happy” New Year

My only saving grace might be if I actually find people to start my band with, but considering how shitty it’s been finding others this Year why the fuck would that change next year?

Honestly though I could care less that it’s a New Year.

Nothing changes, at least not for me. This time next year it’ll all be the same, just wait

introvertunites

Light us up until we pop  I wanna burn bright 'til we're not  Let's keep each other safe from the world  I'll be your optimistic black hole  Full of love I can't control  Let's keep each other safe from the world  From the world    Happy birthday, Merry Christmas  To the one I call my Mrs  I'm leaving you love notes in the kitchen, say it all  I know you said to mind my business  But Cupid sent me on a mission  It's got me sitting, wishing, waiting for your call  Let's be lucky people, you and me    My hourglass is in your hands  You've got my time, you are my plans  Let's keep each other safe from the world  You've got me writing sappy songs  I used to laugh all on my own  Let's keep each other safe from the world    Because I know it's hard to let yourself be fine  But I'll carry around our worried flurried minds  But I'll let go if you do too    Happy birthday, Merry Christmas  To the one I call my Mrs  I'm leaving you love notes in the kitchen, say it all  I know you said to mind my business  But Cupid sent me on a mission  It's got me sitting, wishing, waiting for your call  Let's be lucky people, you and me  Ooh, ooh, ooh    My common sense is powerless  And I'm convinced that you  Caught me lucky, it's just the half of it  The better half of me that I couldn't quit  'Cause now I'm flying across the country  More than monthly for you  You've got me more than clumsy  But you're my yellow lovely    Happy birthday, Merry Christmas  To the one I call my Mrs  I'm leaving you love notes in the kitchen and saying it all  I know you said to mind my business  But Cupid sent me on a mission  It's got me sitting, wishing, waiting for your call

I’m not allowed to be happy

Just when I finally start generally accepting the fact that I’ll likely be alone forever and should find something else to do to make myself happy like enjoy my car, what happens? Some asshole hits my parked car on the street and scrapes the entire left side of it.

I don’t know what I did to deserve this misery, but apparently it doesn’t seem to be letting up soon. I might as well get used to being unhappy, because I really don’t think I’m supposed to be any other way.

Everyone at the party was very sorry what happened even though none of them had anything to do with it. It took a lot for me not to say “don’t worry, it was supposed to be like this, I was finally starting to feel happy again and that’s just not allowed.” So thank you random douchebag in the Silverado, you’ve proven me right.

These picture frames don't hang the way they used to, They're all turned around and half are filled with my youth, Bittersweet reminders of my life before you split me in two. My body didn't like the way it felt last June and it haunted me the whole year then turned into thinking I was dying. Wouldn't pull through to see 22. You keep on saying that I've changed, I know that I don't seem quite the same, Don't know where, Don't know where I went no, Don't know where I went wrong, But I keep singing. I'm at a loss for words under a full moon, Staring at the ceiling of a white room. Does the mirror in the corner see my shame too? Or a different view? On the porch the ceiling's painted baby blue, Dressed to the nines just like the sky in early afternoon. 'Cause its midnight and the ghosts might be coming soon. You keep on saying that I've changed, I know that I don't seem quite the same. Don't know where, Don't know where I went no, Don't know where I went wrong, But I keep singing. You keep on saying that I've changed, yeah, And I don't seem quite the same, no, Don't know where I went no, Don't know where I went wrong.

#PVRIS #NOLA 1 #What We Know of Heaven #What We Need From Hell

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That’s twice this week that someone at work has told me “I could totally see you working in California” at one of my works campuses. Not sure if that’s a slight or a good thing, I’m actually considering it. Maybe a change of scenery for a couple years could get me away from my demons, cuz right now I’m fresh out of ideas.. Well either that or it’ll push towards the other extreme, who knows

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