bye bye

I started this tumblr account when I was a suicidal teenager. I didn't want to be here, and this was an escape for me.

Mental health isn't something I've desire to be open about, because I've always been met with criticisms, or have never felt like I've had a solid support system outside of my parents. I don't particularly like talking about it so openly, because I still view it as a sign of weakness (note: this is when I talk about it, this doesn't hold true for others). This is something I am still working on.

More than a decade later, I've turned my life around for the better. My last self-harm attempt was over 5 years ago, and my last suicide attempt was just over 4 years ago.

I have acquired my bachelor's degree in software engineering, and I am now studying towards a master's in data science. I'm finally working in a big girl job. I've completed plenty of solo road trips, where I've made friends for life, and experienced proper nightlife. I've paid a lot of debt off, and in a better financial position. I am in an extremely healthy relationship, it inspires me to take better care of myself and actually better myself. I stand up for myself, I speak out, my friends are amazing. Things are just better now.

If the last time you talked to me was in the last 10 years, the last 5 years, or even the last 2 years, know that this no longer represents me as a person. Change is inevitable, and I have no desire to go back to the way things were.

I'm stunned to see this application is still going, however I don't picture myself ever coming back to this.