a/n: not coming out of retirement, just inspired
caitlin comforting you after a breakup
another sob left your body as you collapsed into caitlinâs arms
âso he texted and flirted with you constantly, made you think you were gonna date but wouldnât commit, then left you for another girl and sheâs his girlfriend now?â caitlin clarified what you were able to tell her between tears
âyeahâ you said pathetically
âaww sweetheart he doesnât deserve your tearsâ
âi know he doesnât. but just because he never cared about me doesnât mean i didnât really like him. it doesnât mean i didnât feel really good about him. it doesnât mean i didnât think we were going to date. a lot of things are true. just because heâs not worth it doesnât mean iâm not still sadâ
âyouâre rightâ caitlin admitted âi shouldnât tell you how to feelâ
caitlin stroked your hair as you sobbed into her chest. she let you cry until you basically choked on your tears and you had to catch your breath
âthanksâ you were finally able to get a word out
âof course sweetie. you did this for me not too long agoâ caitlin referenced her own recent breakup
âhow did you move on?â
âtime. the only thing that can really help is timeâ
âi donât have time. i want to be over it now. if he never cared about me, he doesnât deserve for me to still care about himâ you pushed back. surely there was something that can help
âthe block buttonâ caitlin suggested
âalready done. anything else?â
âhmmâ caitlin thought for a second âi havenât done it but i heard fucking someone else speeds up the breakup painâ
âyou havenât fucked since your breakup?â you focused on the perhaps less important part of her statement. you thought for sure she went out to a club and picked someone up at least once since then
âi honestly didnât have the urgeâ she admitted
âunfortunately the sex would have to be pretty good for me to not think about himâ
âso women only?â caitlin joked
âyeah maybe. i havenât been with a girl in a while. i hope i remember howâŚâ you trailed off
âiâm sure youâre still great. any girl would be lucky to fuck youâ caitlin looked at you with her big eyes and you tried to wipe the idea that just came in, out of your head
the idea stayed in your head as you watched a movie and drank wine. the wine was getting to your head and caitlin had her arm around you. you always noticed she was attractive-you werenât blind-but you never thought anything would happen because of your friendship. now, for the first time in a while, you were both single
âanything you want to do now?â caitlin interrupted your thoughts as the credits rolled
âjust lie downâ you felt a wave of sadness coming on. caitlin seemed to be able to tell from how her face changed
âget comfortable and relax. iâll clean up the wineâ you got yourself into a comfortable position as caitlin took your wine glasses into the kitchen. she could see all over your face when she came back into the bedroom you were on the verge of tears again. she got into the bed with you and held you while the tears that were threatening to leave your eyes for the last 3 minutes finally fell
âi donât know whatâs wrong with me. i was fine then it hit me againâ
âitâs ok, let it out. feelings are weird and come in waves. thereâs nothing wrong with you. you didnât do anything wrong. nothing was your faultâ caitlin soothed you and stroked your hair
âi just know sheâs hotter with better body. he wouldnât have left me if not!â your last sentence came out as an unintended scream
âremember what you said earlier. she saved you from being even deeper into him and you finding out he was a jerk further down the line when you were even more investedâ
âi know. itâs just so specifically painfulâ since day 1 you felt like he was the better looking one out of the two of you and he could be with someone hotter
âi know sweetheart. let it out. itâll all be better soonâ she kissed your head
âare you sure?â you didnât feel like this would ever end
âpositive. and who cares if he thinks sheâs hotter or has a better body? that doesnât make it true. youâre so hot and you look amazing. you donât want him to think about you at allâ
âyouâre rightâ you started to calm down âthinking about him is bad energy and his opinion is irrelevantâ
âthere you go. youâre amazing and beautiful. donât forget itâ
caitlin lifted your head and wiped your tears off your cheek with her thumb. without thinking, you leaned into caitlin and kissed her. she quickly pushed you away
âyouâre not in the right space for thisâ caitlin quickly stopped anything from happening
âyouâre right. iâm sorryâ you were embarrassed by how unusually forward you were
âdonât be sorry. youâre very emotional right now, itâs not a good idea for anything to happen when youâre so overwhelmedâ caitlin eased your shame
âand when iâm less overwhelmed?â you surprised yourself by propositioning her so boldly
âwe can reassess when the time comesâ
your pain eased as the weeks passed. the pictures of him you saw through mutuals made you laugh. he was better looking when you were together, just like after every breakup. of course, you still had moments of weakness when you thought about the relationship you couldâve had
the biggest setback was definitely when you found out how much you and the new girlfriend have in common. for some reason it worked for him with her but not with you. caitlin assured you, and more importantly you assured yourself, itâs not your fault. it didnât matter how many boxes you ticked for him, if he never wanted to date you, you were never it for him. and it was clear from some of the things he said but you missed at the time that he never wanted to date you
so eventually you moved on enough to go on dates. nobody did it for you and the dates led nowhere but it was good to feel desired for a few hours. and maybe you still cried about it more than you should have given the circumstances, but having so much similarity with his girlfriend was a specific pain you havenât experienced before
caitlin didnât bring up the kiss again. at first you were grateful because you were embarrassed you even tried it, but now you were a little upset. caitlin was the only person youâve felt attracted to since the breakup despite going on dates with all different men and women. you always thought she was attractive but never made a move because you loved being her friend and she was in a relationship. maybe your situationship ended because it was time for you to make a move on caitlin. you were giggling together watching a movie and drinking wine when she suddenly got serious
âyou seem much betterâ she said straight faced
âi feel betterâ you said honestly âi just needed time. iâm not 100% but iâm definitely healingâ
âgood. i donât like seeing you sadâ caitlin pulled you in for a hug and stroked your hair
âcaitlin?â you asked nervously âcan i kiss you?â
âare you sure? youâre still sensitive and i donât want you to do anything you regretâ
âcait, iâm so sureâ you leaned in and kissed her gently. you waited for her to reciprocate the kiss before slipping your tongue into her mouth. you kissed her until you needed to speak
âthe most annoying part of everything is heâs still the last person i had sex withâ
âyou want to change that?â she smiled as she kissed you
âyeahâ you giggled as she maneuvered the two of you so she was on top of you. she pulled at the bottom of your shirt and took it off when you nodded
âyou look so goodâ caitlin said between kisses âthat man doesnât deserve all thisâ
you took your bra off and caitlin wasted no time putting her mouth to your nipple. your hands went to her head and played with her hair as she sucked on your tits. she was using the perfect amount of teeth and you couldnât help but moan and whimper
âcaitlin, can you fuck me?â she pulled her mouth away from your chest and nodded. she took your pants and underwear off and pushed her fingers inside you. she fingered you perfectly, she somehow knew exactly how you liked it. you reached your orgasm quickly and came all over her fingers
caitlin moved down the bed to put her head between your thighs. she held you open for more access and ate you out like it was her job. she ate you out so intensely and expertly that your second orgasm hit you quickly. she didnât let up and your third hit soon after. she moved to your clit and continued her solid steady pace. you tried to hold off but it felt too good. you came hard and heavy for a fourth time on caitlinâs tongue
âcait, cait, caitâ you needed her to stop. it was too much
âyeah?â fuck she looked good between your legs
âi canât take it anymoreâ she moved herself further up the bed to place a peck on your lips
âgood enough to forget him?â she asked with a smirk