Fate Fell Short

You’ve lived for such a long time, yet you barely remember any nights. You’ve lived, but did you ever really feel alive?

take your body when it is angry, and tell it to settle. pour milky tea down your throat and feed your teeth chewy candy. rub the gentle spots of your wrists and tilt your head back. take your heart when it is angry, and tell it to soften. remember the beauty that coexists in the world alongside you. remind yourself, you are better, you are better, you are better. you are better. take yourself when you are angry, and do not yell, speak. do not fight, battle. do not insult, reason. do not hide, rise. anger is bold, anger is brave, anger is necessary. but make anger your bitch, do not let anger make a bitch out of you.

hey, could you love me? i mean, i’m messy haired and hard headed, but there’s love in me too. hey, could you love me? i mean, my lips are misshapen and my tongue plays with knives, but i’ve got poetry in me too. hey, could you love me? i mean, i laugh too loud and i love too hard, but i’m softer than fresh, powdery snow. hey, could you love me? i mean, i feel a bit lonely, but i’m good company. hey, could you love me? i mean, i’m tired of keeping my own self company.

All the things I did wrong: I: I relied on someone for my happiness. II: I love people more than I love myself. III: I never asked for help. IV: I asked for help. V: I opened up. VI: I had hope.