Auditory Processing Problems
• *someone says something* “what?” *repeats themselves* “sorry?” *repeats themselves again* “pardon?”
•"hey, y'see the red thing at the top of the shelf, will you get it?“ “Sorry, what?” “On the sh-” “oh yeah sure, I’ll get it.”
•*doesn’t hear teacher because someone’s pen is making a scratchy sound at the back of the room*
•*replays video 10 ten times to figure out what they’re saying*
•teachers asking, “why do you always stop writing in the middle of a sentence, just write down whatever I’m saying,” followed by the response, “I’m just processing it,” rebuked by, “we’ll stop processing it and just write.”
•*gets really focused on staring out the window and goes through four songs without hearing a single on*
someone is whispering to their friends in the library, you don’t even know who this person is but you know their major, what state they grew up in, and their hobbies during high school. you just wanted to find a quiet spot to do your chemistry homework.
wanting to chime in on other people’s conversations all the time, but don’t, because you’re not suppose to be “listening” to them.
being the only person in the house that can hear that awful buzzing sound certain electronics make
hiding in your room because everything is too loud.
motorcycles were invented by satan
being told that you have dog-like hearing by friends and family
being yelled at for “not listening” by friends and family.
God. God. God. God.
This entire post is so fucking relatable it hurts
“You just need to learn to tune it out.”
Forgetting how to think because ambient noise is drowning out your internal monologue.
“No, I don’t need the volume up, I’d just really like to put on subtitles. No, I don’t need to move closer, I just…”
Leaving the room whenever someone starts talking on the phone.
Pausing your video whenever someone starts talking but trying really really hard not to seem passive aggressive about it.
Struggling to explain why this one sound is the most horrible thing in the world while other very similar sounds are fine.
I don’t know how to express how frustratingly relate-able this is. All of it. Not processing audio the right way (I’ve become convinced I’m going deaf because I have to make my coworkers and customers repeat themselves to me constantly, but then I feel stupid because I understand what they were trying to say three seconds later). If I become aware of the noise in a room, I can hear all the conversations at once, and it makes me feel pressed up against a wall, and it makes me feel crazy. I feel insane trying to explain why being able to hear all the breaths, swallows of spit or snot, sips and slurps of water, snorts, scratches, licked or smacked lips and heavy breathing of people make me want to quit my job on the spot, get out of line at the bank, leave a restaurant or abandon conversations at social gatherings. Like, I know I’m the person with the problem. I know I shouldn’t be tweaked by it. I just am. This actually brought me so much peace to see. I’ve felt upset with myself about it for years and upset with other people for not understanding it. Thanks for this thread. Seriously.
