bunny's chaos corner

hömma

samma

du kannst mich mal

fick dich ins knie

geht's noch?

bruder, muss los

rede

heul leise

muss ja

bodenlos

ehrenlos

I want to be a good friend and help. But at the same time I think to myself that they have a huge friendgroup that lives in the same city as them. I know that they all have a car. I'm the only one that lives almost 2 hours away by train.

I know that I've been a shitty friend recently. I barely reached out, didn't go to celebrations and just generally wasn't able to be there for them.

I know I should say yes. I know I should go and help. I know I should be a better friend again.

I want to.

But fuck, I'm so tired.

All I do is sleep and go to work. I don't practice bass anymore, I don't sing anymore, I'm not creative anymore. I feel tired all the time. My adhd is worse than ever. I have basically zero focus, and no sense of time and procrastinate more than ever.

Even when I have hours to recharge, I still feel exhausted and restless at the end of it.

But how do you make someone understand that? How do you say, "yes, I have the free time to come and help, but I can't". How do you say, "My working hours are chill, but still I can't come and help". How do you say, "Objectively, I'm doing okay but I'm also not". How do you say, "I miss you, but I can't come over right now". How do you say, "I know I'm being a shitty friend, but I can't do better rn".