Sometimes to calm myself down I like to pretend I'm some random thing happening, like a drop of water falling off a leaf or a ray of sunshine shining down. But I really get into it, for example the drop of water. I close my eyes and suddenly I'm falling from the sky, the air whistling past me, the large expanse of blue and grey, parts of me whirl away, the rest swirl together. Smack! I hit a leaf. Its cool green sides fold around me, cupping me gently as the rest of me collides down. The leaf fold gently rolls me down towards its stem, slowly at first then faster and faster until I'm running down and around the stem. Watching the ground get closer until I hit dirt, I soak into the earth, every particle of me spreading and mixing with the dry dirt until its mud. I am no longer water but instead I am something new.