* oh shit bro

maybe if i go to sleep tonight i will never wake up again

When will I learn my lesson? Stop reaching out to people. They don't give a fuck.

bpd thing #272992: latching onto something then replaying it OVER and OVER til you literally wanna stab yourself in the temple

You hate yourself so loudly. You hate yourself at the top of your lungs. Your loathing for yourself permeates your speech. “Sorry I’m just rambling.” “Don’t worry about it.” “Just ignore me.” “Sorry if I’m annoying you.” “Sorry I don’t make sense.” “Sorry about that.” Sorry, sorry, sorry. You act as if you have to beat everyone else to the punch. As if the punching bag is you. If you hate yourself first, if you hate yourself loudest, then nobody will hurt you. You clapped your hands over your ears and shut your eyes and balled yourself up so that you’d never have to experience people’s loathing for you. And it meant you never heard their love. You drowned it out. You screamed your hatred over it. And you never got to hear it. 

Cluster b culture is someone actually being supportive and caring for once and telling you you can tell them anything..... but still hiding the worst parts of yourself because you know they'd leave if you did

Me, rotting in bed for 48 hours: wow this is nice <3