Lola

Or fucking not i guess

"Hours ago" as if i didnt fucking notice it mid workout if it refroze I cant get a fucking spoon in it before my next fucning set

Cant even fucking rest between sets without having to check in my shit god

Yeah no shit hours ago thats when I was fucking working out you think im gojng to hunt you down to fucking ask about ice cream while youre vusy fucking crying dont fucking changing your answer when I ask you to repeat yourself I hate that shit gid that was the only thing I was eating because I needed it fucking soft

Scratching under my chin like im a fucking dog i fucming hate being touched there vut you don't fucking care you just want to touch wherever the fuck You want to touch God and the sensation never fucking goes away foe weeks and yoj wonder why I get so fucking worked uo as if you dont fucking bad touch me a milli9n ficking times a week after constantly FUCJING TELLING YO UTO STOP

I dont fucking like saliva but oh fucki g sure offer a bj for the 79th time this month

And when you fucning do try its exclusively shit i dont fucking like like wby the fuck do you not even consider

How the fu n am i supposed to feel when someone's motivators to do fucking anything hakf the time is trying to not upset me or to "prove theyre useful" of whatever the fuck YOURE SUPPOSED TO CLEAN BECAUSE YOU FUCKING LIVE HERE. THAYS THE WHOME FICKING THING YOU ONLY EVER DO SHIT BECAUSE OF HOW IT AFFECTS ME AND IUR RELATIONSHIP NOT BECAUSE YOURE JUST FICJING SUPP9SED TO DO THESE THINGS AS PART OF SAIKY FUCKING LIFE. and the. On fucking atop of thst the inky physical affecti9n I get are the ones that cross my fucki g boundaries half the ficking time. Why the fuck do i have to tell tou so many fucking tomes part of my ficking body I dont like touched and thencyou act fucking confused as to why I get aversed to being too fucning close to you IS IT HECAUSE I EONT FLIO THE FUCK OUT ON YOU WHEN YOU DO IT????? GOD. WHY DO I FUCKING ABV3 TO

Sucks to feel like they really dont give a fuck about any of that shit either

Hurting myself more to bend and check shit and to fix the shit i Already Talked About amber And Over why the fuck are things just shoved wherever they fit and not where they fucjing go and why am i somehow the asshole for wanting to double check shit as if i DONT ALWAYS OAY A FUCKING PRICE WHEN I DONT. likes it the most fucking counterintuitive shit to my ocd at what point is it not a fucking dealbreaker

Fucking walking over and touching the fucking floor is too much fucking work when all I wanted was some fucking peace of mind okay fine why the fuck did I bother coming back clearly im too much of a hardass 🙄🙄 yeah ill fick off alright

You would think tbeir whple families negligence if that dog ruining my fucking health woukd be enough for them to want to get their shit together vut no tbeh probably wont until I fuckinf die

Do you k ow how often we sit and wonder if you actually secretly hate ys because of all the slack I ha e to pick up and all tbe damages I have to be responsible for. It hurts to wonder if its true

"I was going to" "i remembered" real fucking convenient the only times you say that is when im getting on you for shit and then the things i Dont remind JEVER GET FUCKING DONEM CAN YOU FICKING BLAME ME FOR BEING FUCKING SKEPTICAL. IF YOU DONT WANT ME TO GUESS A PATTERN STOP MAKING IT A FUCKING PATTERN. I just dint understand how this can keep happening. Do I do something to be treated loke this

Cant even get a clean fucking house but I have to hear jokes about wanting dick all week smfh. Sucks doesn't it.

So why does it feel like im asking for too fucking much. Why is "i dont want to remind you of shit " too much

Letting self neglect fuck up someone else's life its fucking selfish