Jon

Their will never be a day I don't burn for you like I always have. Never, never ever will I let myself forget that, that feeling. That excitement. You, beautiful, you are my weakness and I liked being weak. Just know I think about you everyday. And I want to always think about you.

The way our sense of smell works is that it senses the difference in smells. It's why you can get used to horrible smells. I think the same goes for so much else in our lives. We get used to feeling a certain way and when it changes it affects us. Like this morning, when I saw someone I had so many intense feelings about. Lately I've had barley enough emotion to classify me as a human being. But god dam, seeing her walk by.. that rush of dopamine, oxytocin, and all those truly brain altering chemicals out bodies make, remembering what it felt like the first time I met her, when I kissed her. Flooded with feelings again. Remembering im not as cold and hollow as I find myself to be so often.